Like a piece of meat with bone inside
laying there, trying to seem solid
wanting to be a journal to which you confide
trying but failing to be
Our hearts were bound to collide
but time is sand falling, eroding the foundation
falling through these fingers while you decide

One word answers
with lies in between
echoing off my red walls
into caverns
and mazes contained in my mind

Solution in the center
you just have to dig
find my heart beat
and snap off a piece

No pain will i feel
the missing pieces are substituted
with those one word answers
and the lies
coat my eyes perfectly

For when im blind and dumb
the red wall barricades
cant constraint
burden or bury
what was mine initially

catching the liquid
gazing as it slides gentle
over my fingers
and into my palm

watching it fill all the grooves
that make me unqiue
and fall over the cliff
my hand creates

feeling it coat my skin
something dark
shading it a hue
I'd never seen as vibrant

oh how it does feel
running its chills
through my nerves
where they can reach my heart
and prevent my eyes
from pulling the blinds

my dear
your blood is twice as beautiful
when it pools in my hands
where I can play with
between my fingers
like you played with my heart

living every night
on my fingertips
touching the disorganized
alphabet on my lap
breathing every day
day dreaming the next words
I'll compose when
the sun sets
living every morning
with my feelings
of yesterday
on my computer screen

Maybe if I scream
Someone will listen
Between the growls
They'll find what's eating
Devouring me soul and all

my body
unaware and awake
sensing dreams
two eyelids away
my body
clinging and floating
sweating the darkness
between cotton threads
my body
heavy and insignificant
visualizing energy
leaving through the outline
of lips etched to a cheek
my body
cold and lifeless
picturing what night
is like without you
my body
yearning and despising
that sweet smell
caught in the fibers
my body
wishing and hoping
the dimness was darker
to hide the
square inside the frame
held up on my stomach
and blurred by my tears
my mind
fighting and losing
a battle of insomnia
my body
knowing and trusting
that when daybreak
slivers through the blinds
you won't be next to me

There's proof somewhere
I lost, am losing my mind once again
All the time they talk
Trying to find my insides
Wasting moments, I could spend with you
Instead I stare up
Made easy with no brain
Because I've lost so much time already
Letting my neck feel my pain
The stars seem to catch my attention
For my skull understands there's...
No photo of you to keep from looking

I** live in my solitude
where there's safety in one
reality leaves me alone
for the cruel world, harsh
can't touch my mood
when i live in my mind
there's a fantasy in it all
because I don't know who
or how, my outside can match me
when I live in my solitude