Do I still call out to the saints?
If my nightly prayers remained
Unanswered
For the longest time

For how I longed
To hold her hands
To gaze at her eyes
To be eternalized as one

But my delusions
Were always shattered by the faint of heart
That weighs, unsteadily heavy still

Cause everywhere I go
I’m confronted by my fears
And everyday I hoped
That even after all these years
That someday, you’ll be mine

I keep on formulating
Various questions in my mind
But I’m too scared to know,
Of the answers I will find
If ever, you replied

But I’ll find, the words, to say
I’ll find, the words, to say
Someday

Regrets come to play
At the form of actions undone
That up to this day, still religiously haunt me
As shadows of the past

Her, being a constant audience of one
In my theatric, electric dreams
Looking up to that fictional stage
With diamond eyes that seem to gleam

A bitter reminder of what could have been the sweetest tale ever told
Oh, what I’d give for her to be mine to hold

Keep your distance away from the bright burning lights
Give me a sign that you will be all right
Let me have this dance to show you the wrongs and rights
Although the lessons can't be fit into one night

A glass of whiskey
A little bit of wine
As I tell myself
I’m all right

A taste of copper
Still stuck in my mouth
So, would you please, come on, pour me
A little bit of more

I’m on the edge
We need to stop breaking ourselves

We better act now

Before it’s too late, too late to reconcile
We’ll crash and burn as we regret the scars that once were smiles
The whole world will watch as we burn ourselves out
Igniting, in the process, our paper lungs and cigarette hearts

A puff, just one
Clouding up my mind
Inhaling the smoke
Tobacco’s just fine

No, it’s not
I light another one
I refill my cup
I want to give up

A little bit, a little while
A little time, I’m gonna be fine
A little hit, a little wine
A little bit compassion’s just fine

Angels stabbing your tongue to death
When expectations
And commitments weren’t met

And you know that she’s approaching
And the yearning
Becomes too unbearable, to think about

The first. Time. I saw.
Your eyes. Were like. Diamonds in distress

But you left
Before the end can even begin
And I was waiting for you to sing
Your precious lullaby, your precious lullaby

Cause we’re different from the masses
We’re born straight down from the ashes
Like the burning autumn leaves
You might doubt, but I believe

Hear my heart echo loudly,
In the emptiness that is my own
Emptiness that is my own

Alone it beats
Alone it beats

Tonight

Witness the stars that shimmer like they’re gold
Underneath the blackest night
I’ll listen to your every word

Tell me stories that contain endless chapters of finite follies
I’ll sing no songs for spiders
I’ll keep quiet, keep your promises

Can we derail out of this train of thoughts?
Can we detach from reality?

I’ll be living in a fairy tale
With what I hope will have you in it
Full of memories, new endings, old beginnings
Surrealism at its finest

Keep me close, hold me tighter
Keep me close, keep me close.

Marvel at the magnificent midnight
Half as long, twice as bright
The moon shines, the same time
The sun rises and the ocean mimes

The sky, to cast different shades of blue
And the clouds cry, from the tie dyed sky

And as the waves rock me to sleep
I think about how you do the same
Through careless caresses, I could weep

And though this particular sea,
Unaffected by weather,
Let my peculiar dreams set sail

Towards such
Sorrowsweet slumber, nocturnal reasons

The pride of the tyrant, I surrender.
Surrender.