Everything has stopped.
The coursing of blood through my veins.
The relentless calm.
My rythmic breathing is all that remains.

I don't dare open my eyes.
I'm afraid I might scream.
This fire is too much to contain.
The anguish is too extreme.

All I can think is, when will it end?
My reward awaits.
The noise surrounding my still body
I can now comprehend.

The fire subsides.
Retreating to my chest.
The agony in the center of my body increases.
All pain entering the space beneath my left breast.

My heart and the fire battle for control.
I can't think, the pain is unbearable.
The fire will decide the fate of my soul.
My heart beats wildly.

Trying to fight off the fire.
My heart is failing horribly
As I wait for my human life to expire.
One last exploding beat and the pain is gone.

My eyes slowing open.
The morning sun just taking dawn.
I try to think back to before the fire.
My memories, a haze.

I cannot remember what occured.
Even my remaining final days.
This new begining will have so many benefits.
But, I cannot face the consiquences of the life I've left behind.

The memories of that past life
Remain undefined.
My senses were sharpened.
The whole process was so strange.

I think of my new abilities.
I can't judge the rewards of the change.

Nightmares make the person.
I'm falling apart.
I can't take this pain.
Burn what's left of my bleeding heart.

My life has no purpose.
Words can't explain this agony I feel.
My head is spinning.
This can't be real.

I no longer have the strength to stand,
The strength to run.
This game is over.
I'm coming undone.

This is ridiculous.
What is his punishment
For this inhumanity?!
It is me who has been punished.

With the crushing of what was left of my sanity.

Why do you constantly crush my
Heart like a meaningless toy?
Why do you play these games
With me?

Why do think my soul is
Something to destroy?
What did I do to deserve this pain?
What did I do to deserve these tears?

Look at me, they spill from my eyes
Like a bittersweet rain.
I guess my feelings mean nothing to you.
I guess I was just a pawn.

I guess you lied, when you said "I love you" was true.
You got what you wanted
And now you want more.
I don't think so.

I closed that beaten door.
You're already killing me with
Your twisted little games and your convincing lies.
You don't have me anymore.

I'm gone.
Too late for final goodbyes.

It follows you everywhere,
From place to place.
It reminds you of who you are.
The you you can't erase.

Its the thing that lurks in the
Dark silhouette, the thing you fear most.
Its the thing you hate to look at,
The thing you're afraid to keep close.

Its the thing lurking behind every
Closed door, the thing hidden
Beneath every unturned rock.
Its the thing you you push away,

The thing you try and block.
It's followed you over every
Life-changing year,
Its always mocked your every

Move, examined every fear.
Thst something is you,
Always there.
Hiding from every pain you go through.

Always there,
Just ready to blend.
Take a second look.
Consider it a shadowing friend.

We have to be apart.
Don't take this the wrong way.
I'm doing this for my heart.
You came into my life and turned

My whole world upside down.
Because of you,
In my tears of despair I'll drown.
You stand by as my once bright

Life fades to a darkened black.
You stand there and watch my
Desparate thoughts and bad habits
Come back.

The place in your chest where your
Heart should be,
Is filled with cold hard stone.
I watched you turn and leave.

Showing me I'm alone.
I pray one day I'll wake up
And this will all be a bad dream,
Like I never met you,

Like the people I love
Didn't have to hear my anguished scream.
I'm so tired of being here.
Waiting, listening, for my shadow

To remind me of the mistakes I've made,
Whispering in my ear.
The pain in my soul is too much to ignore.
Take it.

Take it all,
I don't want this life anymore.

I can't believe you're in love with me.
I'm silly, I'm loud,
And my mind is open and free.
I get mean, I get paranoid,

And I get crazy in between.
I walk around stores
And speak in demonic voices,
I do weird but fun stuff

With my sisters,
And I still make bad choices.
I slip up and say
Things that weren't meant to be said,

I make terrible decisions,
And I've done things that I dread.
But, hey, I'm human and that's I want to be.
But I still can't believe you're in love with me.

Silent tears escape my eyes.
Beneath my broken surface,
My shattered heart cries.
I've stayed so composed

And I"ve tried to stay so strong.
Everyone believes my act,
So I just played along.
The "happy" girl started to wither and die.

I lost the real me a long time ago,
But everyone wonders why.
I pray to God for my chance to repent.
There's only one way to release myself

From this crushing torment.
I break out into sobs,
Because no one will understand.
Review my past, examine my present,

I can't let this expand.
A tretcherous gunshot to my
Pain-staken head,
Leaves me facing down in a growing

Pool of my own scarlet red.
No more tears escape my lifeless eyes.
Look past my broken body,
My tortured soul finally dies.