A barrel to the head,
I will soon paint the area around
Me that sickening red.
A deafening gunshot, caused by the untaken remorse.

My blood flooded around my
Lifeless body out of my depression's force.
I thought of the people I love and the
People who might miss me, but this was

The only way I could be saved,
The only way I could set my shattered soul free.
With a single note tightly clutched
In my cold, unmoving hand,

Everyone will know the future I had planned.
The life I wanted, how much I missed the past,
What dazed thoughts were my last.
The pain was too much to bare,

But no one took the time to care.
That's what killed me.
An innocent girl who yearned to be loved,
But her feelings and emotions were

Constantly shoved.
No one cared enough to look past
My protecting wall,
That's when it came crashing down and the tears started to fall.

I clutch my chest as the blood
Flows from my open veins.
Nothing can release me from these
Unbreakable chains.

I glance down to the growing pool
Of scarlet around my feet,
I should have known we could never
Make ends meet.

The gruesome memories haunt
My every thought,
Along with the unsettled wars
I constantly fought.

There was no excitement, no glory.
My life is coming to an end
As I tell you my story.
I drop to my knees in the object that

Rought me life,
And remember the need to
End it with that taunting knife.
I scream out in pleasure at the thought

Of my pain ending here,
The sweetness of death is all so clear.
I fall forward to my awaiting death,
No one will hear my last dieing breath.

I learn a final lesson before
The blackness engulfs my soul,
No one really knows when they will become whole.

The canvas of my memories,
Destroyed by my tears,
Was the last remaining torture tool
Of my roughly ravaged years.

I've been given a second chance.
Another shot at remourse.
A chance to get my life
Set on a tolerable course.

With a new pure white canvas,
Unscathed by my past,
I can go on living without
Regrets that will last.

The memories of my pain are long
Since behind me.
I have a whole new world
I have the chance to see.

Seeing through these untainted eyes,
I can see through everyone's hateful lies.

A beautiful heart,
An incredible soul,
An imagination full of
Magic he can't control.

Eyes that can move mountains,
Passion that can drain seas,
An enchanting smile that
Makes my heart freeze.

He's a man full of love
And a man full of hate,
But when i'm around him
I can't concentrate.

My mind goes blank
And my chest starts to ache,
My throat gets all dry
And my knees start to shake.

This one man
Can make a hopeless woman
Feel, and realize that
Her unused emotions are
Actually real.

I need a hero to make me sane.
All these years I've suffered in vain.
The constant hate and
The constant fear

Is enough to make this
Destroyed girl shed a crimson tear.
Like the meaning
Behind the beautiful rose,

Who am I?
No one knows.
I show unreal emotions.
I'm fake.

The me you can't see
Is too much to take.
My soul is gone.
I'm the walking dead.

I can't tell you how much I've bled.
My life is taken,
I have nothing to live for.
The darkness has won my constant war.

She lifts her head to the
Darkening sky, as her
Beautiful eyes begin to cry.
The gentle rain caresses

Her face, while her broken
Heart beats at an unsteady pace.
She waits for the healing of her pain to
Begin, as she listens to the whispering

Of the gentle blowing Wind.
All of her sadness is too much to bare,
As she sends her desperate prayers
Into the lingering air.

Her heart is truly shattered,
But no one can see,
As she waits beneath the weeping willow tree.

Reaching one gentle hand
Into the comforting night air.
You'll never guess what's
Waiting there.

A tender kiss from the
Comforting rain,
Always erases the worst
Of my pain.

I step out into the
Warm summer breeze,
When the lightening
Brightens the darkness around me,

I freeze.
I look to the beautiful
Night sky,
As tears of peace escape

My weeping eyes.
The rain falls as though
It wants to wash my
Sadness away,

The smooth water caresses
My face without dismay.
My lips break out
Into a sudden smile,

Because feeling this
Sweet rain is all worthwhile.