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Jan 2020 · 81
untitled
Daisy Blevins Jan 2020
it was always easy
recognizing dependency
forecasted
predicted in pattern
plastered
wallowing
bloated and guilty  
perplexed and restless
fighting defenceless
endlessly

urgency will never encourage sobriety  
restraint
will not exist
in the routine of
an addict
stimulation is habit and key
for relief
distraction and tactic
manipulation an art of mannerism
identity theatric automatically
Jan 2020 · 84
s.a.d
Daisy Blevins Jan 2020
i dont really see the sun
i miss the warmth of her rise
i hate the blinds in his room,
horizontally casting lines
Jan 2020 · 83
max (unknown date)
Daisy Blevins Jan 2020
You’re coal in the shadow of my blissful state
Waiting to cease the thoughts with the affordable hate
It doesn’t cost much, therefore we all **** a bit
The inhale of judgement to capture the words of ****
Spewed through my lungs with toxic entropy
You’re no better than ****
You’re not worth it, my enemy
Jan 2020 · 85
07/28/18
Daisy Blevins Jan 2020
I have been weak
    A slave to compliance  
A primate chained by
metals of earths
Deceit
I have been love
Suffocated by endurance
Extinguished by crowding I wait for chaos
A disaster
in my surroundings
Jan 2020 · 59
10/23/18 (xanax)
Daisy Blevins Jan 2020
will i ever stop wanting it
looking at my reflection
around my eyes like a cartoon
line has been drawn
highlighting them
in black
they’re circular and
i feel pretty
will i ever stop migrating toward it
like it has a scent i long after
a taste of fulfillment
and
could i ever live with it
i could not
this i dream of
but i would perish
from my own infliction
Jan 2020 · 96
11/1/19
Daisy Blevins Jan 2020
I am a slave to nicotine
warmth provide
nutrients to
restlessness and
deprived confidence
Reach for my tools
my
batteries of life my
Bitter fuel of punishment  
a tank empty to see full
Would be an error of fool
Fugazi
A mistress embedded in movement
sweet sweet feline I
Watch you curl and dance around me
Truly deceptive but
blooming amusement
devine
Jan 2020 · 56
01/29/19
Daisy Blevins Jan 2020
And to what am I subjected
Stimulated
auditory hilarity
I only
Listen to confirm what spoken was intended to be reciprocated
Clarity
Confirmation of banter absurdity firm and
To disbelief I plead truth
Reassurance of matters
Detest beyond
Peace and passiveness b
I am restless
Jan 2020 · 79
untitled
Daisy Blevins Jan 2020
I do not fear your
Implements of death
Comfort ingrained in the leap
Apprehension breeding ease    
(Breath sweat beat)
Grinding teeth into
Palms they poor
Held, captured, examined, release
Plotted and rapture
Infidelity desire deceit
Encased by pleasure, leather and
twine
Nature will sheathe
A primal design
Feb 2019 · 153
Untitled
Daisy Blevins Feb 2019
and i'm sick
you know
bottles bagged
clank break tied thrown
dust and snow rest collect
age brittle and take for cash
cycles of action
consumption
want buy
entitled to own
needing, greedy
feeble minded
driven rash
Feb 2019 · 202
Untitled
Daisy Blevins Feb 2019
and so we ****
make love, admiration of skin
i have fallen deeper into your facades
false affections a collective loss
a means of sensory win
victory, sin
Oct 2018 · 200
10/2/18
Daisy Blevins Oct 2018
sometimes all i want is ease
an escape from the constants
a finale for a game i have broke both knees trying
to keep up with

the sprint
away from cracked teeth
and chewed nails
flushed cheeks
a complexion rose and pale
May 2018 · 149
carter
Daisy Blevins May 2018
it had seemed forlorn
protracted
desire bruised and cracked a shadow casted on
a wall of brick a tale of lust
redeemed falsely projected
a memoir of love i had mounted cliffs to dismiss i
hung freely from strength you forbid to exist
and your sins i forgave
i was feeble, a slave to
your lure
creating devotion, i paid
heedless passion
mindlessly passive
the pain in my chest paralleled
hurricanes
to which my vitality only dented
perhaps wounded at best
Nov 2017 · 251
Untitled
Daisy Blevins Nov 2017
its hard for me to write
hard for me to scale my schemes
hard for me to permit guidance
hard for me to inquire speech yes
my good ******* god please i'd love your hand
as i continue to spiral and sprint and flee
Oct 2017 · 433
untitled
Daisy Blevins Oct 2017
hello!
my name is daisy
and i am an addict
Oct 2017 · 317
mom
Daisy Blevins Oct 2017
mom
and to be an offspring
to be the tow and cleave
electrifying the current
distressing the water
to be the dare
the threat
the trial of power
the error of clemency
a ceaseless Ode, dear mother
as
into my palms you've bestowed the
liability of
daughter
spawned fickle,
protrudent
fathering daze
to weakness my magnet swells vulnerable  
depraved
a beam of fragility
militantly devised  
though  
infinitely hunting  
to feel sincerely brave 
alive 
angelic as
eminence has been
toyed to seem
through my facade of defiance
you are worthy
you see
Oct 2017 · 565
rises in the east
Daisy Blevins Oct 2017
I'm here to rest,
allegedly here to float strain
but my nails remain feeble
infirm
decrepit
I lust and long for an
explicit crusade
I beseech
warily
for a map to pilot this dehydration
a quest for humidity during my
days of which shade
remains scarce
raising my skin
every vein billowy to embrace
for the
sensuality of pain has casted a void of solitude
of which my
sanity can endure for only a
finite number of days
I lust for the dispersal of this fever
and
to the sun and its heat I subside it's fury
to the west
I bury and pursuit to forget the 12 hours I have left
lean
undernourished
hungry for a frenzy
but
God did not forename
the complication of a skull
my brain
has arms and legs
there is a brain inside of my brain
deadly
persists the length of its
fingernails
I admit
and believe, in truth
must profoundly exist
Daisy Blevins Oct 2017
The fortitude
my lungs haul
ecstasy
Smoke withdrawing
In
out
Nearing
my cavity
Of cargo
So purely finespun
Presumable
Exodus of genetic  
vibrancy
investing in my annihilation, currency earned  
inexcusable
Nether each eye rest the mass of lost sleep
Inside
Out
Permissibly spun
I was sober yesterday
But today
I am strung
Oct 2017 · 321
ativanity
Daisy Blevins Oct 2017
I get
only to have got
only to have lost
want
and O to have lost I will
only ever initiate gratified animation
when this tie of
anthropological operation
divides my
contemptuous feline inclination
where I want ease
where for scrutiny I plead
negligence reclining on any
every dream
imprudently high on benzodiazepine
I dreamt purity was conceivably
Tranquilized on
Horizons beach  
applicable as subjectivity may be
the fabrication of chemical composure
has emancipated its tie
to beauty
Oct 2017 · 259
untitled
Daisy Blevins Oct 2017
Ode to dissociative misconduct
to my Father
I would prophesize the weakness I behold does not
Rule the manipulation of God
as He will
without end
actualize my nightmares evergreen

And O,
To my Father
I must admit that the blisters
Feed off a
Yearning greed to wander adrift,
mindless
Cannily
but the pursuit of warmth
grounded
tangled twisted and braided with
a hunger
to reap the strength
to secure my broken
band of once vigorous
bravery
now comparable to a single gold foil sheet
weak
as is realizing
you do not discern
my grief
materializing
treacherous valley   
in where conditions rest bleak.
Oct 2017 · 390
wolf (man) cjis
Daisy Blevins Oct 2017
I am taken
Swooning in awe toward hated
As I have self defined
A yearning I pester my instinct to want
A want in which he conditioned me to hunt
refuge from
He mandates the wolf pack, here.. there
past present future tense
as their
Teeth sting
Knees drag and bleed
Being led by the
Infamous evergreen
tormenter of greed
Oct 2017 · 264
30xr
Daisy Blevins Oct 2017
And to
Whoever it may burden
I place my trust in my own
Anti suburban worship I have yet to determine
The source of my subjective exertion
My mental exhaustion is
Simply a product of self infliction
I am breathing
In the truth beyond fiction while remain a product of
Pharmaceutical addiction
Sep 2017 · 257
wolf (wo)man
Daisy Blevins Sep 2017
There is a part of my psychology
I have absent mindedly
Spawned
a breed of prominently distressing insolence
As ology glides through my teeth I claw
clash combative willfulness
I radiate influence and malicious vigilance
But O,
The very void I dug I’ve grown pertinent to the roots I once
solicited slaughter to
I am twisted within the roots knotted to an impractical degree
contradicting the objective to make myself stronger the
roots remain tenacious
I persist beneath the tranquil surface
Of any other I lean stray and descend into a canyon,
A burden to the clock a
Balancing act I refuse to live a thief,
gaining profit of this
Life I have manufactured into a
circus of deceit
and as dirt clots at the peak
of my hands I ingest the debris of heedless weight
the sunlight will in time caress my face as
I can only
dig way complementary to the strength of my nail beds
so very frail
they plead for a sponge to
tend to the condition I have let them rot, decay
to their own dismay
this sponge
like my brain has
trouble absorbing substance.

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