and to be an offspring
to be the tow and cleave
electrifying the current
distressing the water
to be the dare
the threat
the trial of power
the error of clemency
a ceaseless Ode, dear mother
as
into my palms you've bestowed the
liability of
daughter
spawned fickle,
protrudent
fathering daze
to weakness my magnet swells vulnerable  
depraved
a beam of fragility
militantly devised  
though  
infinitely hunting  
to feel sincerely brave 
alive 
angelic as
eminence has been
toyed to seem
through my facade of defiance
you are worthy
you see

I'm here to rest,
allegedly here to float strain
but my nails remain feeble
infirm
decrepit
I lust and long for an
explicit crusade
I beseech
warily
for a map to pilot this dehydration
a quest for humidity during my
days of which shade
remains scarce
raising my skin
every vein billowy to embrace
for the
sensuality of pain has casted a void of solitude
of which my
sanity can endure for only a
finite number of days
I lust for the dispersal of this fever
and
to the sun and its heat I subside it's fury
to the west
I bury and pursuit to forget the 12 hours I have left
lean
undernourished
hungry for a frenzy
but
God did not forename
the complication of a skull
my brain
has arms and legs
there is a brain inside of my brain
deadly
persists the length of its
fingernails
I admit
and believe, in truth
must profoundly exist

The fortitude
my lungs haul
ecstasy
Smoke withdrawing
In
out
Nearing
my cavity
Of cargo
So purely finespun
Presumable
Exodus of genetic  
vibrancy
investing in my annihilation, currency earned  
inexcusable
Nether each eye rest the mass of lost sleep
Inside
Out
Permissibly spun
I was sober yesterday
But today
I am strung

I get
only to have got
only to have lost
want
and O to have lost I will
only ever initiate gratified animation
when this tie of
anthropological operation
divides my
contemptuous feline inclination
where I want ease
where for scrutiny I plead
negligence reclining on any
every dream
imprudently high on benzodiazepine
I dreamt purity was conceivably
Tranquilized on
Horizons beach  
applicable as subjectivity may be
the fabrication of chemical composure
has emancipated its tie
to beauty