How many more tears do I have to cry,
how many more years til I understand why?
How many more of those long sleepless nights?
How much longer till I know im gonna be alright?
Wanting to belong is all that I need,
just wanting to be loved isnt acting in greed.
How many more sad poems will I write as I read,
its hard knowing it all come about from one little seed.
I see so many lives surrounding me with cheer,
then I see myself all balled up in fear.
To bad life doesn't have a wheel I can steer,
I guess I will just sit back down for now im just here.
Will I ever let go of this pain from my past?
or does this nightmare I live plan to always last.
Its all coming at me to hard and to fast,
feeling like im smothered in a full body cast.
Trying to understand where it is I belong,
trying to stay alert,but at the same time stay strong.
No matter what i've done its always been wrong,
at least thats what i have heard for so long.
I turn my head as I sit and pray,
hoping tomorrow brings a peaceful day.
Solitary and alone is how I must stay,
but still the pain and torture wont go away...
Saturday, May 24, 2008