There will be a time.
When I look in the mirror, I see myself.
Hurts.
Scars.
Wounds.
Pains.
Bruises.
Trials.
I will survive.
From the things that could have killed me.

But not today.

I look at the mirror.
I see nothing.
I am invisible.
I do not even know who I am.

I take a glance.
There is someone.
Someone who looks like me.
But it is not me.

The shadow is upon me.
The darkness is covering me.
The solitude is smothering me.
I am dumbfounded.

Reflection, reveal the real contour.

I am wounded.
I am vulnerable.
I am suicidal.
I am catatonic.
I am in pain.
I am miserable.
I am weepy.
I am insecure.
I am distraught.

Save me.

They said everything was going to be all right.
They said I did not have to be tenacious.
They said it was okay to feel powerless.
They said we were all fragile.
They said we could not escape the fate.
They said we were all up to something.

Uncertainty.
Death.
Despair.

Your lips are bandages.
Yet they only cover.

Silent night.
Perfect time to ease off.
Immersing myself to a fascination.

Ringing phone broke the silence.
Atrocious news was delivered.
My whole life turned meaningless.

David.
You are all I had.
Take me with you.

Snowy.
Windy.
Freezing.
Empty.
Dark.
Lost.

I am nothing without you.

I wonder if you remembered me.
I am still the one that always love you.
For no matter what.
Though you left me behind.

I still could recall the day you left me.
I was lost.
I could not find my way back home.
The home where I always back to was gone.

I still could recall the day you left me.
I felt the most painful hurt.
I was broken into pieces.
I was shattered.

You left me speechless.
You left me ******.
You left me in agony.
You left me in sorrow.

I do not mad, D.
I cannot stay mad at you even for a second.
I still love you anyway. And always.
I am willing to trade my life only to see you again.
Though only for a while.

How does heaven look like, D?
I hope they have angels around you.
Angels that will never leave you.
That will take care of you.

You are my entire world.
You are all I need.
You are my everything.
And I could not ask more than you.
I love you, D.