Upset is how I feel
Wait is that the correct word for it? No probably not, I will never be able to describe how I feel to anyone so im lucky no one asks. Lucky no one cares.

She harms her insides
Does it show on the outside?
No, only a few people know how bad the harming got.
She yearns for more poison
Her eyes get a little wider
FEEL SOMETHING FEEL SOMETHING
Love love love! how do i get that feeling You cannot so she searches for more poison. Her eyes once got too wide and she was scared for her life! No more no more! But its never enough. I AM NOT WIERD BECAUSE YOU DONT UNDERSTAND ME. Snort some more babe feel hard feel whole again its the only way on the coast driving along and all i feel is free. someone turns and says they are getting a little concerned for her then someone quickly changes the subject. She is fine! She poisons herself for fun! her eyes continue to bulge? Is she Alive? Is she Alive? She needs an Alieve.

The girl that you never bothered to notice because she always looked a little to messy for your preference.
A little too sad
A little too rough around the edges
Too angry to pay any attention to
No one wanted to help nor realize she needed any at all.
HELP HELP LOOK LOOK AT ME she cries her deep feelings of depression that cannot be avoided.  The therapist never pushed her enough to tell how she honestly felt, so she was sent home.
HELP HELP LOOK AT ME
You look so much better wow! The girl was so angry by this. You dont know a thing about me. Not one. Does she know anything about herself? She knows she is left alone for far too long at night. She inhales poison and throws up in the tub and mixes with her blue blood far too often. "Your so dramatic!" "Your not sad"
SHUT THE **** UP LOOK AT ME
Hiding

Your hands were down my pants and i felt nothing
Haha im so numb right now.
I hate you get the **** out of my room

Im so scared
Please help me
I cant do this anymore its been far too long
Feeling such a deep sadness and depression and you have no idea how to stop it. It just keeps coming more and more and your shaking and your eyes are red and you go into a panick. What is going on? Why does this happen to me? Does anyone else feel this way? How can i tell someone about these episodes without getting sent to a phsyc ward again? Im so scared Im so horrified

You promise you family you will never harm yourself again. They are so proud of you they are so proud. Look at all the progress youve made. Promise me you wont do that again? Promise. You dont want to go through that again, you truely dont. So you go home and stay harm free for a night! Such a ****** such a character but you dont know how to stop any of the *******. Stop the memories! Stop the pain! Please satan send me away im begging i cant be here anymore this pain is unbearable. So you cut a little deeper and you get a little higher and you explore how far you can go without killing yourself. Why havent I died yet. I do believe i am strong however, because when you have been through that much abuse how could you still be alive?
who knows