Heart beats fast
Blood pressures up
Buzz in your head
Every cell & follicle stands up

Peace on contact
Fire still burns
Laughter in conversation
Passion still churns
Knowledge & ideas shared
Desire holds tight

So much binds them
Yet fear divides

Unknown outcomes
Past mistakes
Current situations
Comfortable yet uncomfortable space

Knowing that now
Liked or not
Seems easier to stay in
Than giving the uncharted a shot

What if it's not
All that they dream
But what if it's more
Than just what's been seen

Should it be bottled
And left on a shelf
To molder and crumble
And shrink on itself

Or should they shirk off
The old ties that bind
And find out what happens
When they give it a try

No one wants to hurt
And no one wants to wound
But what if denial
Brings just what they fear

The loss of someone
Who has become so dear

A favorite line comes to mind
At these times

Fear is the mind killer

Perhaps the heart also withers

floating
breathing
in
out
heartbeat
rustle of leaves
****** of river on rock
slap of wave
drip
one
two
three
more
Shower
Applause of water from the sky
light
flash
Explosion
Excitement
Banging Barrage
Purples
Blues
Heart Racing
Water Streaming
Running
somewhere in there...
one little drop got lost

Beep
Chirp
Random Melody Plays

Notifications

But none of them say what I want them to say

So much information

And yet I am not clear on the answer

Do I even know the question?

How can we be so unknowing in the information age?

So many places to look
Most right at our fingertips
Lord knows we stare at that small glowing screen all day
We shouldn't need to question anything

Ring
Buzz
Chimes

Too bad our hearts can't just download the perfect app
So we'd know which one is ours

So we'd know what to say
When to say
When it's all okay

When you really can be you

Soft Jazz Tune
Funny Line
Doorbell

Maybe one of them is it this time

Laying here lethargically
listless
remote
uninterested

My Heart cowers in the corner
Begs my Brain to fix it
Make it all right again

And it wants to;
It does.

When Heart hurts Brain wants to take up arms
To defend Heart's purity

But here we all sit
uncurious
apathetic
stupefied

Brain is callous to the world
But won't let the world take Heart.
She is still the princess in the gardens
Playing with the butterflies.

Heart will be protected.

So Brain sends out the anesthetics
To try and settle Hearts palpitations.

But when that happens,
The vivaciousness is lost.

And we sit here
dazed
detached
aloof

Maybe tomorrow Brain thinks,
We can try and bring her back.

Make her Lively
Spirited
SPARKLING, again.

But it must be a little at a time
These things can't be rushed

Where Heart is concerned,
They take time.

So for now,

indifferent
melancholy
torpid
is how she must be.

They come from all sides
So many wounds
So much torture
The compression seems endless
As do the tears

Some of the attacks for seen,
But could not be denied
But those to the outlying sentries that always stand tall..
The senseless assault
No warning, no reason at all

Those for seen
Don't hurt less
Just compound the pain
Focus it to a sharp point
To ****** between by *******

There is no breath
To yell or to scream
To beg or to humble
Whisper or mumble
An ask for help

It wouldn't come
It can't
It doesn't know how
Or what to do
To make right

So all the warrior queen can do
Is throw back her shoulders
Stand tall and proud
Knowing she will survive this too
And be stronger for her tenacity tomorrow