Christmas

A time for family
Love
Sharing
And gathering

This year
It was an
Untraditional Christmas.

It was had to work around the one present under the tree for each of us

It was odd and completely opposite
Of a normal persons perspective
On this holiday.

But honestly to me
I knew the struggle my parents were facing
And it didn't bother me

Just the one gift under the tree
Was probably the best thing
I could have.

The thought put into that present
Set me to ease and not frett.

Music an escape from reality
A release from pain
A simple chorus
Brings the depression
To an ease

But instead of music doing
That to me
You do .

You make me hold on
Just a little bit
Longer

But it makes me wonder..

When you leave me
Broken and shattered like
A mirror
Will you to have bad luck
Because of me
Or do you believe in
Superstitions like the
Rest of the naive world?

Ever since you left
You gave me hope
Something to grasp on

Now I'm free falling from a
Man with god like hands
To the depressions down
In hell.

I'm left here guessing
How someone so strong
So loving and caring
Could drop someone
With a fragile heart
To fend on their own

Honestly you make me
Question my own existence
And you made
All that my trust was
And will ever be
Evaporate.

Now
I am
Nothing but a fool.

After all of that hurt and worry
through this
Year
The only true person
there for me was my best friend,
with a cigarette
in one hand and
A cup of tea in the other

A peaceful resort for me to
Escape to

Maybe

Or maybe it just me putting my
******* up and saying
**** the free world

Let me be me and do as I please
So that day we both say out
Under the dark starred sky
Smoking cigarettes

Inhale the roses and exhale
the thorns
Cause flowers don't grow when there's a storm.

She's my kind of rain
I want to feel her all the time .
Through the darkest of days
Where the sun doesn't shine.
I want to be the one to cradle her .
In her most times of fear,
That's when the loud cry goes out.
Thunder.

She's upset and she's a mess.
But to me you are still beautiful.
You might have makeup smeared but
"That's okay",  I thought,
As I wiped it away.
The rain took out everything last night. The thunder had now stopped, and the sun now shines.

She is not only my favorite kind if rain.
She's my soul on a sun shiny day.
She's my everything, that the world and solitude can't be.