Courteney: Poems

Bulimia

Courteney Jan 2014

Bulimia

She had bony legs and protruding hips
A hushing whisper on her lips
Those words that, long forgotten or even told
explain that bulimia had her in a choke hold.

idk inner monologue of sorts

Cracks.

Courteney Jan 2014

Cracks.

The negative part of your mind
asks you why you see cracks in everything around you
but you forget to remind yourself that
cracks are important
or else how would the light get in?

Drowning

Courteney Feb 2014

Drowning

If love is an ocean
then you are the waves
and I am drowning

Early mornings

Courteney Jan 2014

Early mornings

I was never a morning person
that was until
I woke up and turned to see your face
sleep still etched into the skin beneath your eyes
the knots of your hair from endless hours of tossing and turning
and the look in your eyes that told me something valuable
the look that told me you were happy I was here
just as I was happy that you were too

Falling apart

Courteney Jan 2014

Falling apart

I see you now
the way you're holding yourself together
almost like
if you don't hold tight enough
pieces of you will fall before my very eyes
memories and thoughts
spilling from every crevice
every tear you've ever cried
washing away your pride and resolve

I miss you

Courteney Jan 2014

I miss you

It was too hard to tell you I missed you
so I carved each letter into my skin
and hoped you'd pull up my sleeve
but you never did

I'm tired and I miss her

Prom day

Courteney Jan 2014

Prom day

A purple dress
pretty rhinestones
mothers taking photos on their phones
hugs and kisses
compliments astray
this was meant to be my perfect day
you stepped into view
my heart skipped a beat
I suddenly feel heavy on my feet
the smile you show to the waiting crowd
gets them going, they're getting loud
you seek me out
I'm stuck in a cluster
desperately trying hard to muster
the courage I need to
be honest with you

you look beautiful

I don't even know where this came from

Rebecca

Courteney Jan 2014

Rebecca

A gentle touch
"My hands are cold"
Sat in the car, secrets told
One quick text
A ride home in the rain
She taught me how to smile again
A lovely message
A warm smile
I probably could stay a while
Coffee date
I'm going to be late
"I'll pick you up, it's on my way"
A kind word
A second or two
"However can I repay you"
A humble thanks for a compliment given
I never knew someone could be so driven
Positivity being something good and pure
Your future is bright, of this I am sure

It's late and I'm tired idk

Summer fades to Fall

Courteney Jan 2014

Summer fades to Fall

I kissed a girl
and her lips tasted like a July summer
but we all know summer fades into fall
and as the leaves fall apart and die
we will too

Tick tock

Courteney Jan 2014

Tick tock

Tick tock goes the clock
another day passed
Tick tock goes the clock
this love will never last

I'm just writing whenever I get an urge to, ignore me by all means

Untitled

Courteney Jan 2014

Untitled

I shouted I love you's and I miss you's into your heart
as loud as you'd shouted the expletives and insults into mine
You could have knocked me off the earth and I'd have still come back for you
Who knew I'd keep falling this time
I was just hoping that maybe
if I shouted inside you loud enough
eventually that bottle of ***** that you hide under your bed
would start to taste like me

You are

Courteney Jan 2014

You are

you are the wind in the trees
and the smell of freshly cut grass on a saturday
you're the marks on my wrist
and the ladder in my tights
you're the curve of the sun as the moon takes her place
and the flash of a star on it's next adventure
you're the knot in my stomach
and the rain that pours heavier than ever
you're the coffee that burns my tongue
and you're the kiss that hits me like a hurricane
leaving nothing but destruction in it's wake

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