sometimes we need an escape
a place with no darkness
I like to think there is one
with the hope of one thousand suns

sometimes I think about what happens next
after we disappear from history
will anyone remember
will they know me in future stories

sometimes I hide from them
the bad feelings that eat me
I get a break from it all
and when im found, I have a battle call

sometimes it changes
sometimes its a cry
sometimes its a laugh
sometimes im silent

but sometimes I stay strong
I keep my head I keep it up
and when its hard
I stand on my last legs and stay true

and you wanna know how I do it?
I think of you

sometimes your here
sometimes your not
but your always in my head

I love you

Sarah your my something

Listen to the mustn'ts child
Listen to the don'ts
Listen to the shouldn'ts
the impossibles,the won'ts
Listen to the never haves
Then listen close to me
Anything can happen child
Anything can be

-*shel silverstein

my mother told me to be picture perfect
to be every thing she expected
she told me to be something I couldn't
my mother taught me to strive for perfection

my father told me to be unique
told me to be strong
he told me to be everything I could be
my father taught be to be stronger

my sister told me to be caring
told me its ok to have feelings
she told me its not showing weakness
my sister taught me to be open

my brother told me to be playful
told me life isn't always a serious game
he told me to not be the pawn on field
my brother taught me to be my own player

I told myself that im useless
told myself that know one cares
I said im all alone with my flaws
but they taught me that im not alone

they care more than anything
*they taught me to *love me

when I die
I don't want to be remembered
I don't want to be forgotten
I want to be buried with my memories
so I may remember you

when I die
I don't want you sad because
im not there with you
I don't want you to smile
then break down in tears
because im not here

I want you to live
like I was never there
I only want you to remember
the lessons you've learned
the ones that will protect
the ones that kept you alive

when I die
bury me with roses
and letters of love
and the memories that were in them
bury me with the hurt
the hurt I left behind

when I die
live a happy life
a happy life without
the burden of loss
the burden of sadness

when you live
smile and enjoy the illusion
that is the little amount of time you have