i should take off my eyes so i can finally see
what good did they ever do me?
i should take off my ears so i can finally hear
without them my world would be crystal clear
i should take off my hands so i can finally feel
what is like to be touched and know that it's real
i should take off my skin and take off my heart
remove the places you've been and get a new start

i am not a silk scarf on the wind
not a delicate flower to be tended
i am not a dancer
not bewitching eyes with this body
i cannot sing
i cannot cook
i am not an honest person
not able to hurt a soul
i am not confident
not able to walk in a room alone
i cannot stop thinking
i cannot bear to look
i am not all these things
i cannot hope for anyone else to see
but when you bring me doughnuts in the morning
i know that’s where i’m meant to be

the welt you left on my soul is worse than any you left on my body
tracing the marks on my forearm
i didn't realize dreams did so much harm

you make me feel like i could jump off the highest mountain
  and survive it.
just to let you push me off again
if this is what it feels like to be in love
then i hate it and i never want to let you go