I lost you.
I'm not sure when
And I'm not sure how.
But I did.
I lost you.
You slipped right through.
My arms couldn't catch you.
My hands couldn't reach you.
And you fell
Into darkness.
Why did I lose you?
Why did you let go?
Why?
Tell me.
Tell me why!
But I know you won't.
Why would you?
Your silence torments me.
And I know
It brings a mangled smile
To your devilish face.
That devilish face I can't see.
But I long to.
Oh, do I long to see it.
But I don't think I ever will.
It's been so long
Since I have.
And I don't remember
Your notable features.
But I want to.
So desperately do I want to.
But I lost you.
And I don't think
I'll ever get you back.
I wish to.
More than anything I wish to.
To wrap you in my arms
And
To hold you in my hands
And
To see you with my eyes
And
To have you as mine
Once again
And
Forever.
But I lost you.
*I lost you.

I had a dream last night.
The first one in a while.
You were there
Holding my hand
Smiling that beautiful smile.
But it didn't last long.
You were taken from me.
My alarm rang
My eyes opened
And there had ended my dream.
I was overwhelmed by sadness.
You weren't next to me in bed.
My smile faded
My heart frowned
All I had were the thoughts in my head.
My mind was screaming.
The words were fast.
I hate myself.
I woke up.
You're in my past.
My mind is shattering.
Why did you leave?
Was it something I said?
Something I did?
I don't know what to believe.
So now all I have left
Are the dreams of you and me.
Whether they are peaceful
Or painful
That's really all I need.

You broke me.
Congratulations.
You won.
So take your victory bow.
These are the words I want to say.
But I won't.
I don't want you to know
You won.
I don't want you to know
I broke.
So as far as you know
This war is still raging.
Battles are still flaring.
I'm still strong.
But I'm not.
And the war has long
Been over.
And long ago
The battles lost
By me
And won
By you.
But you don't know that.
And I doubt you ever will.
You don't care enough
To know
Or to
Notice that
You broke me.
You won.

Come on, now.
Pick yourself up.
Put on that show.
Pretend everything's all right.
You know it's not.
But do they need to?
No.
Fake your smile.
Hide your eyes.
Stay strong.
I know you feel like crying.
Don't.
I know you feel like breaking.
Don't.
That's what they want.
Can't you see?
But of course you can't.
Your vision's blurred
By those tears.
Those tears
That weren't supposed to fall
From your lifeless eyes.
But they did.
Now what?
You can't stop, can you?
I told you.
Don't.
But you didn't listen.
And now look where you are.
On the ground.
Crying.
On the gound.
Broken.
On the ground.
Defeated.
But that's not you.
So come on, now.
Pick yourself up.
Put on that show.
Pretend everything's all right.