holding onto something exquisite will increase your self-love
you will hold it tighter than ever
so you wont lose it
you will keep it away and safe from the crowd
so you wont lose it
you will put it on a box, the precious one then you lock it
so you wont lose it
but as i said before, self love
what matters for you is you
its all about you
you dont care about how it feels
it hurts to be hold that tight it cant even breath
it feels so lonely to hear no voices and see no one around
it has claustrophobia, for f sake it was ready to burst out of tears for being kept like that
let it go, let it choose by itself
if it meant to be yours, it will be

being skeptical of love
love is a myth
told by someone that doesnt know for sure either
ingeniously camouflaged myth
spoils you with so much fun
so you will never, or you wont ever know what happiness is
then you get numb with the fun
that is when you realized
you chose to exacerbate your mournful, miserable,  useless heart, by falling into that myth.

i really need something or someone to rely on
i dont know what to do with my life, what to choose, which path should i take.
all of me inside out, is rotting
my own body curse me, for a very dark soul that i have
im a real failure
even
to call me satan, is an insult to them
i dont need you trust me
you ll make me worse
stop try to save me
im not worth everything that comes from you
ive burned my heart
i left my self with no heart
just a very terrible soul that left inside me
im rotting
i turned to gray
i dont know is it bad or good
i cant see anything clearly
im standing in front of two doors
its on me now.
im just one decision away from being
the best version of me, or the version you'd never want to know

i am the anchor
but now
i will lift my self up and put myself at the dock
so you can sail away freely
dont mind me, i will be okay.

i believe it will be ardous but again
i will be okay

you ll hear me bawling as you sail away but again
i will be okay

and im quivering as i say goodbye but again
i will okay

this goodbye sounds more like a plea for you to stay