It's funny how the day you die
Is the day the world will be ready to listen
Your smile blinds all of my horrors
I've had the time of my life
Slaying dragons with you, fighting fire with you
I wish I could have had the chance to see
The world that lies behind your eyes
But I keep mistaking warm winter days for spring
It's a bittersweet season
I am all bent, some parts even broken
But perhaps at the very end
This ordeal will form me into a greater shape
So when my ashes touch the surface of the shore
Lie along the riverbed and listen to the current take me away
Because some of the greatest stories
Are heard but never told
I'll blow a kiss at the bleached soil
And wink at the rusty skies
I have a hammer heart
It beats with too much force
Moving too much life and love
All flowing through such a tainted body
And this blood stains skin
For Gods sake how do you not see
I'm not waving to you dear
I'm drowning
You say you love me
But when I collapse
My back to the floor
All that lies beside me is the piercing, still air
And its so cold
The little time bomb tells me to go to sleep
This weapon is making my hand sweaty
The tears are here
But just like always I will let them be
I forfeit.
We have seen it in each other
These past few years
Our bodies have grown
But our hearts have torn up
Flames on my forehead
Dont worry, I'm not completely gone
Ill be the one sitting in the backseat of your mind
'a mess' doesn't even begin to describe what I am in this moment