My heart trembles as I walk to you.
It's over, I thought, for sure this time.
'I can't do this.' You tell me.
'Just do it.' I reply frustrated.
I looked deep into your eyes and all I saw was pity and confusement.
You took a breath.
'Break?' You ask.
Why didn't you say up?
Why just break?
I look at you, tears filling up my eyes. 'Bye.' I said as I hugged you one last time, inhaling your scent.
I walk away, biting my lips, rushing to the toilet hoping a tear doesn't fall before I reach.

I stood at my locker later that day.
You came and stood behind me.
You placed a hand on my waist.
I really wanted to use all my might to ask you to let go but it felt like home and I really missed your touch (it has been a long time)
I looked at your eyes, and I could see pity.
I couldn't look too far into them without crying.
'I'm sorry.' You said with a frown.
If you are breaking up with me for another girl, at least be happy about it. 'I'm sorry.' You said again.
'No. Don't say sorry. Don't say anything. Just say hi,' I replied
'Smile.' I continued.
You forced a smile and that was all I needed to convince myself that you were happier without me.

(I saw you with another girl after school and I guess you were happier after all)

lately i'm feeling restlessness,
pain, being mere suicidal
and pure emptiness
all at the same time

i'm still wondering how
that is possible and
my only reason is you

restlessness is for the times
i looked at your lips
and wanted to kiss you but can't
because you don't feel the same way anymore.

pain is for the knife
jabbing in my heart
every time i see you with her
instead of me

mere suicidal is for the fact
that i know you can leave me
and you deserve much better
(without me, it'd be easier)

and pure emptiness is for how
i've been hurt by you
way too many times that
i can't feel any of these anymore.

I'm the type of girl who feels a little too useless
who believes that everyone has to leave a mark.

I'm the type of girl who believes she must save everyone.

I was so busy trying to save someone else,
I forgot for a moment that I too could drown.