I really have no words,
N o    w o r d s,
   N o    w o r d s,
Left for you my dear.
And it feels like
I am speaking a thousand stars worth
Right now

For once I have planned
Many times i have tried
B u t    s t i l l
I will never understand
That we only live
A day for once
But  n o n e  o f   t h e m
Made you mine

What days really
C o u n t   in our  l i v e s ?
Would I even reach
A year or a month?
How about a week?
And then, I wonder why
I already lived for two decades
Yet it felt like:
I   a m   n o t  e v e n    b o r n   y e t.
And despite the realization,
My hands and feet are still
Incapacitated by self-induced
L  i  m  i  t  a  t  i  o  n  s  .

Sa mga taong malito,
Wag nyo na ko guluhin,
Matagal makasakop
Ang   u t a k   k o
Ng sarili nitong lupain.
Wag ka na tumapak
Kung magpapagpag ka lang din,
Diba galing ka sa lamay
Ng puso **** tinadtad ni sawi?
Dito mo pa niligaw, para ano
Ako yung multuhin?!
Ako yung lamigin?!
Ang tagal na naka-burol niyan
Bakit di mo pa ilibing?!!
Nandamay ka lang ng pusong
Natutulog ng mahimbing
Oo, ibig kong sabihin
Wag kang balimbing!
H i n d i    k a    k a m b i n g ,
Oo slaughter house aking lupain
Sige okay lang, dito ka magpagpag
Para sa iyong pangalawang tadtad
Nagbebenta naman ako
ng    d o u b l e   d e a d ,
yung tinatawag nilang botcha
Oo botcha naman!

The sound of the rain,
Blurs the  s p a c e s  on my head.
Sprinkles of blessing,
Healing what was corrupted,
By voided self arguments.

I am the   b a d   a i r
You thought you feel
Before  s l e e p i n g  in,
                 &
That  b l u rr y   v i s i o n
Every  m o r n i n g

The blanket of stars,
S e e   t h e m ?
I called them
One  by   one
Using your name
But none of them
Heard me,
**N o n e  o f   t h e m
           F e l l  

Minsan hiniling ko nalang talaga na sana, ang puso ko ay di gaya ng
k  a  l a n g i t a n
Na araw-araw nabubuhay,
At gabi-gabi namamatay.

Ang pangarap ko
Ay parang dagat na pilit kong hinahawi gamit lamang ang kamay.
Ang mga tao kasama ko
Ay tila mga paso, na pag hinangin
Ay bigla nalang mababasag.
Ang isip ko ay punong puno ng
Mga batong buong buhay ko dinudurog. . .

Kasalanan ko ata na maging
M  a  r  u  n  o  n  g ,

Kasalanan atang malaman
Na sa buhay, may bato sa daan
At may bato ding kumikislap.

Kasalanan atang hindi maging
K u n t e n t o  sa kung ano ang meron ka. . .

Kasalanan ata na kahit anong runong mo, di mo pa din alam ang tama **** kalalagyan.

If you cannot remember
A n y  t  h  i  n  g
After all the feelings are gone,
It means:

"   There are   n o  m e m o r i e s,
Just disillusioned  f a n t a s i e s .    "

When I am having bad times
Like this, I wonder why
You are not here with me. .

Every struggle is a percentage
Of my heart reshaping itself. .
The kind of world I aspire to live
W i  t h    y o u
Is turning into crumbles,
A ball of fire sunk in the ocean

Before it was   s u n r i s e ,
But now, my love
Has become   s u n s e t .
My skies get dimmer
As this heart is drown to
n o  t h  i  n  g n  e s s*.

Every day is
the same road, same lines,
same lights, same dents on the
c r o s s r o a d s .

Flickering lights of
s t o p    &    g o

Sitting on the back of a cab,
The beeping sounds start to sink in. . .

S    l   o   w   l    y
I close my eyes, thinking :

"  Where the **** should I go?  
If somewhere the rivers don't flow,
W o u l d   I    b e   a l o n e ?  **"

Do you really think
It's easy to let people go?

You let them go because
You are just  n o t   e n o u g h
To sweep them off their feet.

You let them go because,
It already took you  y e a r s
And none of the days,
Made you want
To express
What you feel. .

You let them go because,
You deserve  s o m e o n e
To give you what they call
" A  t  l  e  a  s  t  "

You let them go,
Not just for a   r e a s o n . .

Everyday became
A   m e s s,
You live your life's test,
But where are they,
When you're about
To break down from stress?
Where is the love?
T h e r e   i s   n o n e .

You let them go
Because  n ot h i n g ne s s,
Is too cruel. .

           *It poisons the heart
                   It drowns the soul. . .

You let them go,
To bring your vision back.
To give others a chance. .
Those others which is
A reflection of who you were:
" l o o k  at  m e   &  l o v e  m e  ba c k. . ."

Love is reciprocal. . .
Pity yourself,
If you think
It is co n f id e n t i al. . .
Wake up in that,
Illusion of waiting. . .

You let them go,
Because you love them. . .
But more of
You love yourself
B  E  T  T  E  R
Than  y e s t e r d a y .

. . .  you exist in every person,
and you, among the mosts, knew how genuine that love could be.

If you want to end your life today,
Remember:

" A   *s k y   i s   b o r n
Everyday, and dies the same. . "*

Nothing lasts the way it is,
In life, we continue walking,
Despite the br e e ze .
Never spend your years,
Digging the earth,
we do not live simply,
To find our p e a ce .
We breathe to yell,
And sing, the agonies
Deep our  s o u l  that stings.
We walk, to find a place,
Inexistent through-out space. .

In the end you'll see,
That what we are looking for,
Is not a   pl a c e   to   b e  .
It is L I F E  itself
And its  i ma g er i es,
It is the souls we meet,
and the t ** u s an d  lifetime,
Of the sky we see.
**** your time, not your life
Make it a crime, a henious one.
Slowly slowly, pierce your heart,
Not with daggers, not with swords,
Use your smiles, your words,
Your thoughts, . .
Make it reach,
Your s o u l   and  f o r m. .
Go burn those thorns
Growing on your head,
They are not worth your cause.

Sakim ako ee,
Ayoko masyadong mag isip,
Ngayong malapit na ako,
Sa tuktok ng aking mga panaginip.

Mas malakas ka pa kasi sa nescafe
Magpa-gising. . .
Mas matindi ka pa sa kopiko,
Magpakabog ng dibdib. . .

Delikado. . . . .
Baka kung kelan malapit na ko sa tuktok
Tsaka pa madulas pabulusok
At ang masakit?
Hindi yung pagbagsak e,
Yung katotohanan na
Hindi ka man lang mag iintay
Kahit  k a u n t i ,
Para ako'y saluhin.

Ang masaklap?
Hindi yung mawala yung mga taong pinaghirapan ko,
Pero, yung malaman ko na:
Kahit ano pa man
Ang mapabayaan ko,
Walang magiging tayo.

Kaya eto ako, masaya.. .
Masaya pala, na mag isa,
Pero mas masaya kung may,
Makakasama ako sa twina,
Yung kahit hindi ikaw,
Basta handa siyang maging ikaw,
Sa pwesto ng puso kong,
Dati, ikaw ang sigaw.

I deserve to be
With someone
1 0 0 0 x     b e t t e r
Than my  f a t h e r :

who doesn't even care about me. . .

who doesn't bother knowing
what I'm feeling
If I am sad, or even breathing. . .

Who doesn't even
Greet me on birthdays, or atleast
Ask once if we're okay. . .

Who doesn't even know how I've set
My standards so low:
1000x should be a
M i l l i o n   t i  m e s,
B i l l i on s , t r i l l i o n s!
& the stars won't just amount as much.

I deserve someone
Who r e a l l y  loves me
Like how my mother d o e s
How she made us strong,
always teaching us what's wrong. .

It sometimes hurt, ya know
Not having the chance to call
A    n a m e  o n l y
Other children would know.

Even though feelings got immune,
Where there's n o t h i n g
Left, even hatred fled,
Once a year
I've always wanted
To slap, hug, and greet you
A  H a p py   F at he r's  Da y!

Thank you for not being my father
Coz it made me wish
Of a dream, so worthwhile:
A complete & happy family
With a mother, father, and child.

That's why I deserve
Someone who can
Live that dream with me

I've already got
Enough of people
Who chooses not to be with me
And as much I want to keep them
**I  j u s t   c a n't  coz   i won't.

Do not s p e a k
Of  c o l o r s
With that dry, patched
Mouth of yours. .
It'll sound so crisp
Enough to melt
R a i n b o w s
Into rain.

It is  a l w a y s  sad . . .

To read
Other poet's
Rhymes, about
Heartbreaks and neglects,
Felt like a burst
Of your blotting ink.

It is  a l w a y s  sad . . .

That sunburns
To a winter-frosted heart,
Exist in every soul,
That seeks for love.

It is a l w a y s  s a d . . .*

That there would
Be love,
Only meant to get,
Old and white.

I don't want
To live my life
Keeping you
I n t e r e s t e d .
and that's how
I let you go . . .
Coz   e n o u g h   occupies
A reasonable time.

The time you already
gave it your all,
But the night remain still,
And stars refuse to fall,
Where even the wonders
Of your  i m a g i na t io n ,
Sleeps without call.

When the sun sinks
I n t o   t h e   o c e a n ,
I always think
It is   c r u e l ;

To drown a ball
Of scorching heat
Is a  m u r d e r
Of one's belief.