I am a Cubic Zirconia.
On the outside, seemingly polished and sparkling.
But beneath the surface, flawed and jaded.
You saw me, thought me a Diamond in the rough.
You thought you could fix me.
I thought you could too.
We were both wrong.
And now here I am, worse than before,
And missing you terribly.

You left my life
as quickly as you came into it.
Fell out of the sky,
and into my lap,
quite literally!
Never before have I
wanted time to stand still,
as much as I did then.
And as the doors slid shut
and you glided away into non-existence,
I sorely wish I'd gotten your number.

Happy paintings and
Smiling faces
Cover up the stench of death

Because now I'm confused.
Are these subtle hints?
or works of fiction;
created by my own mind,
to fool myself into thinking
I'd ever have a chance with you?

Faced with the fear of death,
Permanent extinction.
I know its preposterous,
But the mind wanders.
I risk a glance
Over my shoulder,
Seeing every mistake,
All the terrible things I've done.
But I also see the good things,
The tiny, shining moments of joy,
That make everything worth it.
If I were to die now,
I'm glad that I can say
I have no regrets.

I think that this is it.
I'm on my way to who I want to be.
I've gotten used to the darkness.
Befriended it, almost.
It's going to be around for a little while longer.
For the first time in ages,
There's a light at the end of the tunnel.

Dancing in the streetlight.
You take my hand,
And pull yourself to me.

Enveloped in the night,
Together we stand,
Beside the crashing sea.

The spark ignites.
This wasn't planned.
Under the influence of Bunter's Tea.

A casual encounter
Inside my head.
You took my hand,
And led me to
The most amazing places.
But as I turned to look at you,
I found I couldn't see your face.
I guess this is proof;
I don't love you.
I just love the idea of you.

I feel like giving up,
Throwing in the towel,
And calling it a day.
The fight has left me
Battered and broken.
I'm not sure I can take this anymore,
Because I'm fighting myself.

I had a dream once,
That I stole you away.
Left the others behind,
and took you to a place
that you'd never been before.
We'd watch the sun go down.
And we would fall,
both in love and asleep,
in each other's arms.

I'm not sure anymore.
You seem perfect for me.
But then again,
So does everyone else.
Am I in love with you?
or have I been alone for too long?

I'm absolutely terrified.
Theres no way it could work.
But that reality won't stop,
My heart from melting whenever I see you.
I'm falling for you.

I'd love to say **** it,
Drop everything and run away with you.
Run from the evil people and their hateful words.
We could go to our own sanctuary,
Safe from the world outside.
But alas, I am trapped here.
I need you,
Save me.

I've been here before,
This place of hurt and suffering
Because you don't love me back,
And I won't be the same.

I've changed myself,
To accommodate you.
But you changed as well,
In the opposite direction.

I guess I'll have to move on.
There's nothing here for me here.
Thanks for the memories,
I'll remember you always.

The humble fisherman,
Trying to make a living.
The trawlers haul in their nets.
The seagulls take whatever is left.
But alas he waits, rod in hand,
For that one small bite that makes it all worthwhile.

My hands are sweating,
Marking the keys as I type.
This could be the beginning of a new chapter,
Or the end of the story.
My heart skips a beat as I press send,
And hope for the best.

Grey is this town,
A never ending spiral of hate and violence.
Depression is contagious here.
Why haven't we been quarantined.

I was so sure,
But now I'm confused.
I thought I knew what I wanted,
But then you came and ruined my plans.
And I wouldn't have it any other way.

Through heartbreak, pain and sorrow,
You are there to pull me out the other side.
You know me,
You understand me,
You care.
It helps to know that in this world of liars and *******,
There's at least one person who gives a ****.

I don't know you,
but I want to.

I've never spoken to you,
but I want to.

I can't hug you,
but I want to.

I can't hold your hand,
but I want to.

I can't kiss you,
but I want to.

I don't love you,
*but I want to.

Behind this screen I hide,
Probing you with questions.
I await your answers gleefully.
Waiting for you to reveal,
Another facet of your seemingly perfect being.

Yet I have never truly spoken to you.

I'm falling down a pit of dispair
All I hope is that I hit the bottom soon

I know I'm a ****
I know I stutter and stumble
I know I **** up, a lot
I know I take it too far
Forgive me
I'm not good at improvising

It's a ***** job
But I guess someone has to do it
If you've stood in a particularly large dog **** on your walk home,
I don't mind taking care of it
It's what I'm here for
But where can a doormat wipe its feet?

Lots of people complain about being a third wheel
I somehow seem to end up as the fifth 

It's not too bad being a third
Things like tricycles and Reliant Robins justify it

But I've never heard of anything with five wheels

It's over.
You could say that it was doomed from the start.
We both saw it,
We chose to ignore it,
And now we pay the price.

Our castle was built on sand.
I saw the cracks forming long before it collapsed.
Amidst the confusion we were separated.
And now we are lost,
Never to meet again.

I hate this
I hate having to slap on a fake smile and pretend
I wish I could show you the real me, the me that hides behind this Halloween mask.
But nobody wants to be depressed
I'd **** the happiness out of you with a straw
I can't do that to you
I can't ruin you like the others