Why can't songs end at the same moment the engine shuts off?
Don't leave me to go through this day singing unfinished verses
At least let my favorite part come to end
Let's sit
Everything else can wait
This is a moment I don't want to miss

In my memories you're just a sillouette
Your outline smudged and grayed
I can't see your face
Your voice is muffled
Void of  gestures
I've known you the longest
but I can't remember
"She lives on in your memories"
No, she doesn't

When there is no God and no memories
What do I have left?

Why didn't you tell us
Battled and bruised
Fragile heart
Tell us to leave you alone
Your hard work should have paid off
In the garden or buying yourself something nice
We ****** you dry
It's all our fault
Your heart broke
And then you died

I will follow you down
Your grave bent and furrowed
If I keep up my ways
Golden brown my lungs

What's down there
You'll show me
You will know by then
Dig mazes for us to follow
And we can build a life in the dirt

When I visit you are still
The ground falls under my feet
I know you have tunnels already
You can show me decay
Stash away our jewelry
In hollowed out dirt shelves

Like every great
You had to go first
To dig us tunnels
And make us a mud house

Black
The smell of nightmares
Melted
Frozen in time
2:00
November
Sixteeth
We left it all there
And there it still sits
Motionless
Black
Melted
We can never go back

We left it there like normal
It was all so normal

Now

It's over
All over

Stand beside me
Stand and exhale and
Tower over me
Shadow me

Fold me in your darkest
Where no light can hit me
Speak normal
Be usual
But teeming with me

Shelter me
Not caring
and bearing
it all

Look at me between warm breaths
Amid the frightful
Swat away
Keep my gaze
Steady

In your cover
I am everything
Cosmos Mephistopheles
Cancer
Jesus reborn

To take my first puff
Because they didn't understand
And they smoked! Hypocrites.

To hop in back and not buckle
Like I envisioned years of PTSD
And my cat stuck in the seat

To make you a daddy
Not one time but three
Like I could envision this zoo

To undo number  four

Struggling to quit, brave, deal, forgive.

If there is any crazy beast in me
It comes out onto you

And you stay anyway

I look back and see all my wrongs
Yet I do them again and again

You still don't go away

I don't know how you deal with me
I'm batshit crazy
I'm unstable and unclean
I can't cook and I'm bossy

I fly off the handle some days
At things I don't mind the next
I don't make sense
But I can convince us both that I do

You're growing weary of me
I can tell
And I don't blame you

Home is a collar bone in my ear
Home is smells of polyurethane
And epoxy
Home is a mountainous beard
Lush with soft brown hair
that I can squish between my fingers
Home is two sunken eyes
Cradled by wrinkles
That smile at me
Home is hard-working calloused hands
That when led to soft skin
Work the opposite
Home is skinny legs and a concave chest
And a poked out belly full of fur
Home is seventeen years older
Twenty pounds lighter
Inside of an aging man

Time
you enchant
beg for hours
                        endless

Every minute
you never waste away
like all the things in your grace

You are the only one here
who will see the sun explode

Beyond that
even

Relentless in your thirst for endings
because you can't end

Oh John
How far we've come
You'd be marching, so much marching you've missed

Oh John
We're not yet done
So much to do, so much to change still

Oh John
Your anthems still lead us
Power To The People battle cries
Give Peace A Chance to try and make things right
Imagine cops not killing innocent people
Working Class Hero is not something to be John

Oh John
You'd know what to do
I wish you were here to champion this through
Or hold one of your obnoxious bed-ins to prove
That it's okay to look ridiculous for a cause

You'd have egg on your face over all that's gone on
And truly be the Egg Man
Oh John

We're all waiting to die
Some of us just have more distractions than others

I am the cog that hits the cog in a great machine
I'm furthest from the source
Like Neptune