In the beginning
It was pure
It was full
I was sure
That I loved you
But it ended
When you broke my heart in two
We started over
Again and again
And once again
I see the signs I see
When things must end
I cant bring myself to do it
To break her heart again
I know I still love her
Enough to care that much
But I dont know
If love is really true
Should I hurt this girl
Or stay miserable in where I sit
In this poem I fear
A message will be sent
As her eyes scan the words
To read it will be tough
I know I love her still
But just not enough
I hate the message I must send
Because a heart always breaks
When things must end

What am I gonna do?
Whatever you want me to?
I'm so far away from you
And I don't understand
This life I cant stand
Secrecy
Is a fallacy
A memory
Instantly
Drives me away
My mind continues
To scream
And to shout
What is my life about?
So
What do I do?

Let it pass
Is what they say
It's all in the past
One thousand yesterdays
But can they really tell
That inside I'm in hell
Trapped under a love spell
By someone who doesn't care anymore
And now I'm torn
Shredded to pieces
Battered and broken
In a river of tears
I sit soaking
Drowned in my fears
Can you hear the thunder
The thunder that pulls me under
The crimson tide
And the clover blood
I'm now undone
I know I cannot last
As I look into the past
Wishing the pain would pass
Till then I'll just stare
I'll stare through the looking glass
And try to forget the one who once cared

I cant seem to find
That solid reason why
I try, and I try, and I try
To keep my spirits high
The world just falls apart
Shatters at my feet
Hoping my heart will start
As I fall down to my knees
Seeing the light through wary alarm
As I lie face down in the street
The blood does pool around me
Footsteps echo all around
A person who no one can see
A reverberating sound
One that doesn't exist
And now I'm gone
Another mark
On another list
It's all the same
Nobody really knows my name

Clarity
In unity
Your scrutiny
Can never pay you well
Arrogance
Upon your stance
This final dance
From death
Twirling and whirling
And feeling so free
Hopeless and thoughtless
And caught in between
As the world keeps turning
And churning
With every lunar pull
Above
And beyond
In space that's so cool
Screaming
And careening
Off course
Of course
You know that to each single life form
Caught in this storm
Is caught in the throws of terror
Fairness in vitality
Death in severity
Life in virility
Pulling and tugging
Lifting and lugging
Laughing and crying
Living and dying
In the eyes I see the knowledge
I see the intelligence
The ability
The stability
Unable to attain
To ascertain
And regain
Life
Such is the struggle...
...
Of gods and men

When it rains
I count the little droplets on the window
I avoid the cold black widow
As it hangs high at the ceiling
It gives me an odd feeling
A feeling that makes me wish
That even if I'm rich
Death would be my escape
From a world
Hollow and *****
From a vision
Of pure and total hate
Why do these people hate me
Why do they hurt and interrogate me
Asking unspoken questions
Looking for unknown answers
Invalidating my prestige
Through intolerably hateful banter
Yes
I see this
And feel the pulsing of my veins
Yes
I see this
Every time it rains

Sometimes
I hate my life
Sometimes
I think I should die
Sometimes
I've lost all my dreams
Sometimes
I just want to scream

I just want to scream
So loud

So loud
You hold your ears

You hold your ears
So tight

So tight
You lose all fear

You lose all fear
And desire
This fire
Which burns within
So much to be given
Sometimes
I think these things
Sometimes
I want to scream

What is my solace
My mind does try to find
A solid reason
For a season
Of solemn serenity
Eternity
Is fleeting
Can one truly grasp
The intricacies
Of the human mind
And try to find
Hope
Where there is none
And some
Continue to ignore the obvious
The world has given up hoping
All energy turns to coping
With life
And strife
And struggle
We're huddled
In fear
In a world full of malice
Tell me
What is my solace?

I am a snake
slithering silently
Through solemn sorrow
To borrow
A soul
One rule
En jeweled
upon my tomb
Is that we cannot control
We cannot hold
Anything
Our dreams are fleeting
Passing us by
I need more money
I ask the world why
Why should I pay
For my voice to be heard
Why should I pay
for my own artwork
For that matter why should anyone pay
To shine
The world is a snake
Slithering silently
In solemn sorrow
To borrow
A life
In strife
And in turmoil
A large fight
Leads to radioactive soil
Children's bodies litter the ground
All around
And I ask why
Why should the innocent pay
For the crimes of a leader
Why must the poor pay
In blood and in fear
I awake in a scream
As I rub my eyes
I come to realize
It was a serpentine dream

Its everywhere
In everything
Its over there
It makes me sing
A song of sadness and lament
I'm stuck in the ground
Trapped like inside cement
and I hear the music calling
and feel myself falling
again and again
I stop
and I lose my friends
I dont
and I end up dead
I cannot rest assured
as long as I'm pressured

A feeling of loneliness
A showing of heartlessness
Soaring and flying
Living and dying
Inside this force, it grows
A felling we all know
Inside a darkness grows
From my head to my toes
Inside it rises up
And yes it pulls me down
I see an empty cup
Insignificance is my crown
For this I shed one tear
For there is few I fear
You persecute outside your preference
Merely proving your own insignificance