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 Sep 2014
Geno Cattouse
A witches brew forget what you knew about what you knew.
Summer heat comimg down to Haight street.
Black leather. Huey P.

***** South..coming round.
The lottery for your vacation in the Mekong Delta

Power to the people  wattstacks.. love generations birthday.
Coast to coast conflagration.
Burn baby.
The Hearst chronicles
         Apollo flew from the Cape.
Kennedy casket draped for
a procession.
Economic depression.......

Tick. Tick  Tick.
 Sep 2014
Geno Cattouse
When I was younger
I got high for perspective.
. Mostly
Though I discoed with John Barleycorn.
Doing the hustle and the bump.
  Then
Now. What a chump
Powdered my nose a bit
Too.
Superman in flare-wide bell bottoms.
Platform shoes.
My left foot.
Still hurts.

Love to meet my guardiaan angel and
Buy him a drink.
He put in overtime
Thanks.
 Sep 2014
Geno Cattouse
would walk out of the city on Sunday afternoon after Sunday Mass
Dinner at noon was the custom. then the city would slip into  Sunday coma.
Mantovani, Acher Bilk, and the BBC wafted from the Television less homes we passed
on our way to the river.

Old chocolate men reclined on rickety old wooden porches smoking hand rolled
whatever as we strolled by giving us the lazy eye. All knowing , know nothings.
Sun beaten and calloused to lives of hard labor. every now and then one would just give a
jaundiced nod and look away/ Live to smoke another day.

Half paved tar and gravel roads simmered and writhed in the distance.
but our bare feet.
slapped in rhythm .cut off knee pants and skinny bare chest attested to sparse living but we
never knew it cause the mangrove jungle was minutes away and big
unwanted catfish to hook and throw away. Disdainful (Kiatto).

Off the simmering road now hopping toads. Johnny fiddler ***** for bait .
The canoe awaits us two small school boys in our natural state. One seven one eight.

Pelicans survey slowly above where the river meets the sea A small ripple and down he goes. He knows where school is in for mackerel and terrapin. Bone fish too.
We small boys with no fear . Innocence a pole and cork. One hook apiece is our gear.
Knee deep in mire as we push of and jump. A paddle apiece as we stroke against the tide to traverse the emerald river wide. The far bank. My Aunt Doris's shack.

Man over board to tie of the. Bow.

A snack of tortillas and beans then up the river no fear. Fun and the fish
Sun and the wish for an endless Sunday. We hate Monday. Back the priests and nuns.Slate writing board and times tables.
Let's fish.
Let us dream.
Tied off in the mangrove shade.
Swatting horse flies quietly. Quietly?

Like bird dogs we study the floating cork.
A wiggle, a bob. A bob. Set the hook and out comes the prize.
Then more. More flapping underfoot.we can hardly.walk. The glee
A bonanza.
All fried up and crisp.Catch and release. What madness. Catch and consume.

Day is done in the Carribean sun.
Home eastward. The pitch road is more forgiving on bare feet now
with the September sun at our backs. A leisurely stroll back to the
house. No worries,

A bath  and change for the Sunday evening show.
The Thief Of Baghdad or  maybe El Cid.
The Duke Audie Murphy in a double header.

The walk home along the moonlit seaside.
To start another Halcyon stream.
Another time and place rooted firmly in my memory.
Read  THE RIVER ROCK. More from Memories of a childhood in Belize.
 Sep 2014
Geno Cattouse
I was youthful and dull
Like an empty vessel.
I was youthful and bright
Like a blinding light
Truely.

I was young and arrogant, ignorant of my arrogance
But with good heart and intent. Unrepentant in my venting.Unrepenting and blinded by my own light.
Now

Know what I know
Inner direction.
Instinct weaned of pain and experience.
Still as a cadaver breathless almost.As the wild world turns.
I read the writing on the four walls..the room spins slowly..
Graffiti ?
The odds on the outcome are in my grasp each step a casual stroll on burning embers.
The smell of my own burning flesh will help me to remember the tally.
Wisdom for it's own sake.

Ignorance is no excuse so
Turn slowly
Burn brightly
Eternity waits eternally.
 Sep 2014
Geno Cattouse
Makes demons scatter
They cower in distant lands and await skyfall when only incandescence provide small detours but never refuge.
Sleep ?
Is a demon's bazar
They whirl and cavort  gleefull that I have let them in on these rare occasions,much lost time to recapture.

Spectacular spectres. Portents.unbridled daymares with thundering flashing hooves,they gallop with boots reversed in silver stirrups.

A bagpipe dirge is on rotation as goblins and cadavers saunter in with dead carnations pinned where lapels should have been but by  now  only rotting and putrid skin.

Chain lightenin creases the night.
An eerie glowing light pulastes from atop twin peaks.Castle Frankenstein sits one hundred feet above the witches haunt. An antlike procession crawls to and fro between. Lost souls seeking refuge or small comfort.
 Sep 2014
Geno Cattouse
I was like....stuck. She took every thought from my head.
I was like....dam.

She was like....more than beautifull, like a sweet dream lingering after.I awoke.
I was like...done.

She was like no other woman I had ever been close to.
She was like...Tesla lights dancing across the room.
I was like.wow.

She was like reaching through.my thoughts and her words were like strange.music...like I never heard before.

I was like deer frozen in the glare could hear my heart pound.
I was like a boy all over again...like that.

She was like magic

She was like music

She was like ecstasy

She was like...... gone
 Jun 2014
Geno Cattouse
A spiraling thought like a Kansas twister
Shot from a howitzer. It came swiftly with no sound.

Sent from your heart's mind to mine like beams of needle sharp desire.
It aged in the journey and was tempered by time.
Time spent in the cauldrons of eons,vacant and hollow with no
Yesterday or tomorroww.

It floated downward for eons more.
Downward it drifted to eternity's door.
As I lay there in darkness, my eyes percieved light
A twinkling quasar that was dying in flight.

        I waited. Suspendd.
Expecting.
Nothing.
         Closer it drifted till the message it spoke.
"Softly dear heart"
It whisperd to me.
            " another time and place
Awaits us."

"Fear not,love is here".
To all who have loved and lost.
Fear not. Love is alive.
 Jun 2014
Geno Cattouse
big Hand laying on top of the small hand straight up midnight.

water drip dropping in the kitchen sink like a dusty jackhammer
solving Chinese algebra in the Blazing noonday Sun

good bye baby so long girl.
you knew the drill off the top of
your head you knew  how to make me hurt....so good
I dreamt that dream again last night standing in the middle of the floor.the music was low the tempo real slow

just how we did a thousand times before  but this time, this time baby
they were just four walls ,the music playing  and the closing of the door.
 Jun 2014
Geno Cattouse
life is easy.
It's the livin that's hard.

Breathing is easy.
The inhaling is hard.

Thinkin is easy.it's
The knowing that gets hard.

Walkin is easy.
It's the stepping that gets hard.

Drinkin is easy.it's
The quitting  that gets hard.

Leavin is easy.
Its the lovin that breaks hard.
 May 2014
Geno Cattouse
I strive quite often to write away from my narrow existence to dismiss the woe is me and will she ever see how much I love her plea.

So much more to know and see. Histories mysteries things that pass beneath my feet unseen yet hold great import.

Things that pass above and around me silently but for me striving to hear and see to ponder and unravel in reverie. Not just all about me and me.

I would bore myself to insanity to just keep looking inward always inward with thickened lenses.

My salvation from self pity and confusion is to bear as little self delusion and fling my mind open to the wonders past and present...the future is vast and limitless.

My god is nameless and will so remain because I am far too feeble to look at it's glory and with feeble audacity give it name.

To write away from is as easy/natural as blinking.
To write away is my salvation.

I am less than nothing in the scheme.
I am as loved as the sun that shines the roaring tide the rivers wide the wayward wind the global spin so massive yet unfelt.

I write away from me for my sanity to do otherwise  is like pulling lint from my navel while the stars twinkle a million years away and beckon.

I write away,above, below, over under and through. I hope we all can do so too

PEACE
 May 2014
Geno Cattouse
She died a sudden death
at least the the bullets impact
slammed the door.
but I cant say for sure.
I hope so.

I dreamed her in repose a few months before.
I am not a dreamer nor  do I think I have a gift.
I saw her with ruffled lace around her throat
asleep still lovely in profile a hint of a smile.

The mahogany half lid removed. just her face
and I shuddered knowing it was a dream as I dreamed it .

                                                     You know when you know that you are dreaming
                                                        ­                    and choose to let it play out. That was the case.
I left her to her own devices knowing they were fatal
in the long term but not so long after all.
I knew she would find the rainbow even told her so

                                          Her death wish was  on display the day
                                                             ­             The brown van careened around the corner
                                                                ­          The blue sedan in pursuit shooting blindly
                                                         ­                 she stood and watched the show go by
                                                              ­            with no regard. I looked up at her from where I
                                                                ­          sprawled and knew for sure then that she
                                                                ­          hoped for the rainbow.
  Diana was her name.

  Out of sync with her existence.
  Boy how did she last that long.

  She  told me  once and never repeated
one warm California night as we sat on
the level roof of an adjoined  building from her apartment
we sat and watched the pinprick stars far away in the
black velvet sky drinking cognac as the city lights cast  from afar.
she told me.

She told me and I cried inside of a father
who took her innocence and made her prove her love in a twisted oral benediction.
Then It all made sense. We never spoke of it again and her scars glowed purple and pulsing
from within.

  

   All heart and soul.
   Caramel eyes that held love always
   Never anger or even pain. That
   was buried as deep as the hole
   she has lain in for years.

This is as close as I have come to saying goodbye.
She drifted backwards.
Old and new acquaintances
Toxic .

The end was brutal.
The rainbow at the end of the pain.
 May 2014
Geno Cattouse
1968  I remember 1968..
The land of milk and honey.
The war was still cold but not
The Tet. That ***** was hot.

1954 I made my debut. Lotta my boys did too.
** chi Minh amped up his crew.
Can't. We all just get along.

No way LBJ. Young guys all over town stressin the lottery.
The randomness of body bag.
Friday hip deep in rice paddy.
Monday a letter to your moms.
 May 2014
Geno Cattouse
The Brute in me is a gleeful beast.
The Trog is older now and mellow.Yet. Pull up a chair.
Just a minute of your time if you will. Sometimes,
I watch  him  ooze  through the pores of my skin and he stands there.

Myself and he apart
He always  walks down to the river's edge where I always find
him skipping stones. skipping stones and staring at the far bank.
He does not see me or it seems so. This never changed for years.
After some time in reverie,he turns and walks by me.
I can smell the potent odor of his sweat.
The brute is me at twenty three.

Later still he returns to his dimension
deep within my past,
Wordless, yes until one day.
The beast  looked  over his shoulder mid toss


A stone skipped and tipped the  universal
constants.

Pulling a pistol from thin air he shot me at point blank.
Two head, one heart. A bit of a start not mention
That was a bit rude but not out of character for me
at that age. No no don't get me wrong.The impulsive side
Not the homicide
Suicide. Hellofa ride.

Well. Well without further discussion, we casually
Walked back to the house an split a bottle of Stoli's
And. Watched MMA bloodletting on cable T.V.

— The End —