I wrote all of these little words for you but without them I don't know what I'd do. I refuse to again lose you, because now I'm losing these too and I'm so afraid of what's next.

I'm like the ocean and babe
you're like my sky
I promised I wouldn't be just another guy
Honey, remember I am always here for you
And when you feel down
we can both be blue.

What if we traded places? Keep the same feelings and kept the same faces. If I'm the sky, be my perfect blue. Because even with all my clouds they'll still think of you. At night be my shining stars. People around the world will find beauty in you miles apart.

Babe if I'm the sky please be my ocean blue; an infinite amount of perfection, an arrow in the right direction; I just wouldn't be me without you.

I'm like the ocean and babe
you're like my sky
I promised I wouldn't be just another guy
Honey, remember I am always here for you
And when you feel down
we can both be blue.

It's okay, I forgive you. My heart will heal in time. I'll say, "I'll forget you; I'll be alright." And only time will tell, if I can forgive myself. And only time will tell, if I can forget myself. If we live and let live, none of these words'll pass my lips.
Only time will tell.

Suddenly I don't feel quite myself; I'm feeling down. I need some help, please don't let me drown. But I'm thirsty enough to drink this whole sea. I might just to see what would happen to me. I'm beyond it, but won't say I'm past it. So when I die, do not cry, strike up a match and light up my casket.
Watch it burn.

It's okay, I forgive you. My heart will heal in time. I'll say, "I'll forget you; I'll be alright." And only time will tell, if I can forgive myself. And only time will tell, if I can forget myself. If we live and let live, none of these words'll pass my lips.
Only time will tell.

I will not accept what I do not deserve. I wish to meet you in heaven, but my seat in hell is reserved. So I'll ride this train past my death. You bought my ticket, and eventually you'll bare the consequence. I'm beyond it, but I won't say I'm past it. So when I die, do not cry, strike up a match and light up my casket.
Watch it burn
Now I'm gone

It's okay, I forgive you. My heart will heal in time. I'll say, "I'll forget you; I'll be alright." And only time will tell, if I can forgive myself. And only time will tell, if I can forget myself. If we live and let live, none of these words'll pass my lips.
Only time will tell.

No one gets by without a scratch. No one survives a backstab. They leave scars that last. Kiss away my pain. That’s enough to drive a man mad, and tonight as you scream my name, our problems’ll fade away. For now.

Empty lies from a siren. “It’s alright” as I lay smiling. The only truth is behind the violence. It’s killing us both, or so I thought. “**** me now”, and you say with a  grin, “I’d rather not.”

I write stories and forget them instantly. Erase them please; “memories” I say peacefully and painfully they’re washed away, but never completely. It’s beyond me how I keep making the same mistake.

Empty lies from a siren. “It’s alright” as I lay crying. The only truth is behind the violence. It’s killing us both, or so I thought. “**** me now”, and you say with a  grin, “I’d rather not.”

If I start to believe, that it’d ever change. It’ll be the death of me, a little too late.

Empty lies from a siren. “It’s alright” as I lay dying. The only truth is behind the violence. It’s killing us both, or so I thought. “**** me now”, and you say with a  grin, “I’d rather not.”

As you know, I come from an emotional, dysfunctional delusion
A sort of internal, infernal, disowning confusion
This pain is sempiternal, but I'm a dynamite with the fuse lit
I’m not gonna complain again, cause that’d be useless
I mean it’s not like she’d ever hear the words that I say it's
As if I never spoke them, oh god I'm nuisance

I'm so pessimistic
It's really pathetic
To watch me **** myself over a few sad sentences
I'm so narcissistic
It's really poetic
To tie the knots on my noose with my own words

Before I die though
I'll go on the aggressive
With some passive resistance
Because I'm honestly quite sick of all this constant *******
Call me Ghandi and I'll be quick to dismiss it
Unlike him, I know when I'm through being messed with
And I don't let people step on me like I'm a rug on their doorstep
Unlike me, he's not over possessive
And people didn't call him out for being over obsessive
But we both fight for what we think is right
Except he teaches on the lesson
While I'm kind of offensive
And the amount of times I swear is a little over excessive
But It helps get the point across to these ******* thick headed dimwits
So I can see how I'm not one they'd be impressed with
You know who you are when I'm this far on the defensive
I'm just a little over protective
There's no limit to how much I can stress it
You'd be my way too if you were looking from my perspective.
Because what if all of the sudden
Like a flame in the kitchen
Something you thought was normal grew into something that isn't
Because they only listen
When there is no way of saving
And only when you die do they even look what you've written
Poem after song and song after poem
I'm so sick of all these words unspoken
But I'll let out all my thoughts and that is a promise
So look me in the eyes and I'll be honest

Your parents don't get why you blare the music so loud. They don't understand that you're trying to block out their sounds. Their useless words from their mouths won't help them now. Let's walk through the day in your shoes. Wake up and wish you didn't. You look around and feel the skin you barely fit in. Your step-mother calls you down but you already know what you're getting. She'll talk to you like you were less then throw a fit when you tell her you're not listening. But why should you when it's not even her house you live in. Now you're in the bus waiting for your hell to get in. It's hard to survive the ride. You barely get by, when you get to your school and waste another six hours of life. In class and all you can think is "stop the tapping!" or these ******* lights shine to **** bright. Detention after school, but you don't care tonight. These bus ride parasites don't care and are only seeing through their blind *** eyes. They can't even read your heart with their ******* crippled eyesight. You get home and all you can hear is the sound of your parents fight. Not again when mom's wrong and dad's right. Seems backwards until mom leaves again that night. You go upstairs with the same frown you wore all day, with only one thought in your head. "How selfish of me, to want to be dead." Because you are sick of these constant repeats and the daily life circle. You just want to escape the cage of it all, but if you can't then you will continue to hurt 'till.....

Take my breath from me
Take it all and then leave me
I'll let you do all that you want to me
But don't pretend that It's happy
It's not okay, thanks for asking though
It's hard to say you sir are an *******
But it's just me, and I'm nothing special

So I'm sorry your betrayal isn't enough
I'm sorry your fairy tale was
But mostly I'm sorry that I let you

It's okay, I don't even look anymore
It's okay, I won't even speak again
Since I can't replace what you took
Well, I shouldn't even be writing this then
Should I?
No, even you can't control me
But since you know me, you know I'll let you

So I'm sorry I wasn't perfect growing up
I'm sorry that you got everything you want
But mostly I'm sorry I let you

Now, I know it's nothing I could help
But deep down I told myself
that when you finally break down
I will be the only one who isn't around
It's kind of sad to think about
Do you deserve it?
Of course you do for all the people that you've been hurting
me included
But it wouldn't make me any better than you
would it?
No, I would be worse than
I would be cursed then
when I finally found something good I would lose them
because then I would deserve it
So right here, I'm ending this endless cycle
I'll tell you what I'll do
I'll forget you as soon as I forgive you
Because I know that you love him
And I'm only sorry I let you

Oooooh

Don't be sorry, I did it to me
Blades could only reach my skin deep
But only some can get through
And I'm sorry I let you

Sometimes when I'm alone
I dream that I'm at home
And maybe one day I'll find where I belong
If my thoughts start to scream
I'll show you just what they mean
With scars amongst me, I know where I went wrong

I'm just not sure how to fix myself. I'm a broken mirror trapped in myself. I'm don't know that I can make it. It's fight or die; make or break it. If you could help me forget you, I'll help you forget me too.

I'll show you just who I am
What truly makes a man
Not just another pathetic human being
You make me think I'm broken
But you make me think that I'm useless
So how can you claim you cared at all for me

I'm just not sure how to fix myself. I'm a broken mirror trapped in myself. I'm don't know that I can make it. It's fight or die; make or break it. If you could help me forget you, I'll help you forget me too.

You don't deserve to live another day.
You don't deserve to see me again.
Never.

I'm just not sure how to fix myself. I'm a broken mirror trapped in myself. I'm don't know that I can make it. It's fight or die; make or break it. If you could help me forget you, I'll help you forget me too.

You can survive. You don't have to die. You just gotta believe in yourself to avoid your timely demise. Because what you're feeling can't be helped. I know you wouldn't wish it upon anybody else, but that's life. Yeah that's life.

One of these days when you sleep I'll admit that I am weak
But I know that I'll be alright, so just let me live my life
Because even through this unhappiness, I'll be okay
Yeah, I'll be okay.

You know that I'm right. You can pretend all like. Even if it isn't happening to you, doesn't mean I'm out of sight, and out of mind. When it finally comes around, I will be the only one to make a sound, but that's life. Yeah that's life.

"I'm the only one who gives a **** about you."
LIAR

One of these days when you sleep I'll admit that I am weak
But I know that I'll be alright, so just let me live my life
Because even through this unhappiness, I'll be okay
Yeah, I'll be okay.

Even if tonight I can't sleep.
I know you're a wreck without me.
You pushed me away.
It's your fault.

One of these days when you sleep I'll admit that I am weak
But I know that I'll be alright, so just let me live my life
Because even through this unhappiness, I'll be okay
Yeah, I'll be okay.

You’re the reason that I daydream
Because you’re the reason that I can’t sleep
And I just can’t help myself
When this old comfy bed becomes a cell

When I lay awake at night
With both of my eyes open wide

Why are you the only one I see
When you aren’t even lying next to me
And even if I know
I’ll keep searching in shadows

They wonder what it’s like
To see shadows where there should be light
Like crystals to the mid-day sun
I could shine bright and I’d still be dull

As I lay awake tonight
With both of my eyes open wide

Why are you the only one I see
When you aren’t even lying next to me
And even if I know
I’ll keep searching in the shadows

Tomorrow I hope I’ll be fine
I’m still searching for my peace of mind
Maybe if I get some rest tonight
I’ll see it was right in front of my eyes

Don’t think about it for too long
This might start to look like a love song

Sorry, but I’m too lost for you to find
Pal, I’m sorry for being so blind

Why are you the only one I see
When you aren’t even lying next to me
And even if I know
I’ll keep searching in the shadows

I know now, I do miss you when you’re gone.

I’ve never felt this nervous.
I swear it’s never happened like this before.
I just wanted it to be perfect.
I can’t even think straight anymore.
I can’t help but be angry.
It’s just who I have grown to be.
And I hope you don’t blame me.
For holding in the things that I never say.

This is the only time that I won’t have the strength
But tomorrow I know that I’ll be able to have faith
I know that if I can’t then I will never get away

Tonight I will give way
It’s who I am today

It’s just another night.
And I’ll live through it I swear.
But this isn’t your burden.
And I’d never give it to you to bare.
Maybe I’ll hold it all in.
But maybe this a little too much.
I know I’ll let it out without thinking.
It’s just another reason that I am afraid

This won’t be the last time that I won’t get to sleep.
Never again will I be the only one that nobody needs.
I’m breaking out of this shell where I’ll finally be free.

Tonight I can not say
That I am okay

I can’t help but be who I am
And I can’t stand these facts
but I will accept them
I know I’ll never get those nights back

I won’t fight these words you whisper
I know that they are true.
But why are you telling me
When I’d never do this to you.
I won’t argue my opinion
I won’t swim in shallow seas
You’ll never know the secrets I have hidden
If we never speak.
I’ll let these pictures on my walls
And these plastic heart
Stain my memories on my arms
A little blood never hurt no one.

I’m not the only one to have self-inflicted scars
But at least I know that they don’t make us who we are
I can’t let my demons go, but smiling is a start

You’ll never find a heart like me
It’s who I am today

Let’s pick up where we left off. With one intact and one broken heart. Where he picked you up, and then dropped you off. But I don’t think you understand, just what I have lost. Don’t expect to get helping hand if you guess wrong. I just wanted somewhere where we would all get along, and you just wanted somewhere where you belonged. I must have made you strong. Because now you expected something a little more. I trusted you so much, I ripped the door of my mind from it’s hinges. And I left it open so you could get in it. But it’s none of your business to worry about how much time I got, who I spend it with. But if you wanna start a civil war over something stupid, good luck with that. I just wish you’d see what I stand. I’m only human, but once I start yelling get the **** back. I’m sorry. I couldn’t say it anymore sincere. Just give me space. Back the **** up and get out of my face. I warned you not to get close to me-I’m a walking ****** case. You don’t wanna be friends? Fine, it’s about time I cut my loose ends. But what ***** is that since then, for months on end, you’re all I could think about. But just when I thought you were gone, you came back and I wrote you this song.

You’re my ghost, someone that I can’t see.
I’ll pretend, that way we won’t speak.
I only want you to be happy.
So why can’t you help me move on?
Because I’m running out of choices
I’m grasping at straws

I could think of any better day, then when we just slept and didn’t have a single word to say. The smile I wrote on your face was just the beginning. And every time you saw your beautiful face, it was just the best thing. And even at six in the morning I can’t help think of words I never got to say. I’m sorry for everything that I said. I’m just a little messed up in my head. I can’t stand these empty lies anymore. I’ve got to tell the truth before I walk out the door. I’ve had it with doing what we must. Because we all know that it causes us to combust. You say it’s for the best, of the rest. But what about me? We’ve come too far, dealt with to much, fell too far in love, to let you just, self destruct. That night, I had enough. I couldn’t understand why you loved-, someone you never met. I wanted to be the reason you were alive, not someone who’s music you listen to when you were upset. I I understand now, how he kept you alive. But I regret it all now I know better than to talk to you now though, because what good would it get? But every day that passes by, I’m losing myself bit-by-bit. I wish that I could rewind just a little while, to change my past ways and erase this sorrow. Because I love you more than than these last days and less than I will tomorrow. Don’t worry, I’m not blaming you. I know it was my fault. I just don’t know what to do about the abuse I give myself. Well, I guess this is the last thing I can do, because…

You’re my ghost, someone that I can’t see.
I’ll pretend, that way we won’t speak.
I only want you to be happy.
So why can’t you help me move on?
Because I’m running out of choices
I’m grasping at straws

I was just a lucky boy I guess, I finally found the one. I was just another guest in this house that she made for one.

I know you don’t want to speak. But that’s what’s killing me. I miss the soft tone of your voice. I refuse to move on from you and I don’t know why. Because I just want to talk to you forever and ever. And never hear again, the words, Good-…..

You’re my ghost, someone that I can’t see.
I’ll pretend, that way we won’t speak.
I only want you to be happy.
So why can’t you help me move on?
Because I’m running out of choices
I’m grasping at straws
Grasping at straws
Grasping at straws
Grasping at straws

Sometimes I fear these thoughts, because I am alone. And it makes it even worse, to know that they're my own. I still sit in this empty room, my phone open to your name. Maybe I should call, or maybe you'll just say

"Please just go away. I'm finally at peace. You've sent me through this hell, now get away from me. Maybe it'll be again. But tonight is not your night. We would be the best of friends." It gets better, just when.. It falls apart again.

I only fear my death, because I am alone. And I just want you home, where you'll be my own. My mind is filled with thoughts of you, I can't sort them out. I just want to think clearly now.. But tonight you'll say.

"Please just go away. I'm finally at peace. You've sent me through this hell, get away from me. Maybe it'll be again. But tonight is not your night. We would be the best of friends." It gets better, just when.. It falls apart again.

"I know you sit in that empty room of yours. You wait for me to crawl in bed. I don't know what I was thinking. What got into my head? Please baby let me enjoy your taste. Let me one last time see your handsome face."
And I'll say.

Please just go away. I'm finally at peace. You've sent me through this hell, get the **** away from me. We'll never be again. I tried for all those nights. You don't make the love of your life cry. I just kept trying to convince myself, that I had survived hell. But nothing hurts more than hitting the bottom of the rocks I fell. It gets better, just when.. It falls apart again.