my blooms
never reach the sun
because
you crush each one

i'm tired
of feeling guilt
for what comes naturally

you're like..
the opposite of love
in human form

i don't think
my emotions are fair
to you
but
i don't plan on
rightsizing

you make me feel
lonely
even when i'm with you

i enjoyed the day
despite you
and certainly not
because of you

can i stop
pretending
to be happy
now?

my feelings
are not a secret
so
they shouldn't be
a surprise

unfortunately
this vision
of my future

doesn't include you

forever
keeps getting shorter
while i
keep getting older

time
will
run
out

woke up
in a sea of calm
yesterday's gloom is gone

warm sunlight
pulls me out
from hiding

for a moment
i can forget
my aching heart

how do i explain
to you
what's happening
to me?

it doesn't work anymore

words with no meaning
hollow smiles

actions of empty hearts

i tolerate
i cope

but
i have no more love