Thoughts
Nothing but thoughts
But they’re not good thoughts
Thoughts that surround me daily
The ones that tie me up in chains
And take their hand and cut me
Nothing but crimson red liquid flowing from my wrists
Nothing but pain and suffering
Nothing but hurt
But now that these feelings control me
Im sorry to the one’s that love me
For I might hurt you
And I don’t mean to
But these thoughts control me
They consume me
And to you they may seem like nothing
But to me they are my everything
No matter where I am
Who im with
The thoughts are in the corner
Waiting for the right time to attack
They are like a bear
A bear that haunts my every moment
A bear that seems to take away my happiness
And I try and try to fight back
But its just too powerful
This monster has taken control of me
And the monster is now my master
The masters name is
Depression

I honestly hate it here
The children’s screams when it’s time for recess,
The echo of lockers being shut constantly.
The voices of people who bring fear to my head.
The phone ringing on the wall.
The sounds of shoes hitting the floor.
I hate it
Im so tired being stuck in these doors of humanity.
I just wanna leave
I wanna be able to be home
But I also want to be happy
But we don’t get what we want
Do we?

I cant think
I cant speak
I wanna scream
But when i open my mouth,
Nothing comes out
I just want to be okay
But i simply cant get a break from the pain