The fact that I deal with all this alone,
Is the best and the worst at the same time you know,
I don't need anybody in my life
and I don't need anybody in my life,
That fact kills me more than anything,
I can deal with the issues but who can tell what's real,
If noone stays beside you,
You walk your path, I call you,
But you can't hear me, why could you,
I was never able to speak to anybody nor to you,
So I sit here alone, wonder what time should I make my call,
Death is already on it's way.

I acually don't care anymore,
All I hear is nevermore,
Well if I stay alone, nothing terrifies me more,
I think I love you,
And that's the worst,
But I will try to not focus on the words,
If you can tell you should say,
Let me be or always stay,
I'm shutting down my feelings now,
All I do is grind.

I don't know how to feel,
What are you saying?
What do you mean?
The only thing I know is, that you stole my heart with your show,
If it was real I can't tell,
Who knows,
Such dark eyes and such beautiful smile,
Please be the one that breaks my heart.

Hope Is such a *****,
She always comes then she leaves,
She never stays for one bit,
But who am I to judge her for it,
Now I would like to know,
What will happen in this show,
Where will be tommorrow,
Who will stay close,
Who will bear my sorrow,
I'm sorry I'm not talking,
I just feel like something,
Is in the way to make me say,
What I want to say,
Leaving it to the future,
Creating my own way.

Words can't express my feelings,
Music can't help me with breathing,
Wish I was more wise,
Wish I had a second start,
But what can you do than to move on,
When everybody else did, don't just stand around,
Yea I know they all left you,
But I'm still here,
I can't give up now, go to sleep,
So if you want hold onto me,
I will try to take you as far as you need,
But if I ever stumble, fall to the ground,
Don't come back for me, because I'm already ripped apart.

With wisdom there comes pain,
I wish I could write this in a more entertaining way,
The more i know the more i wish to die,
You know world is ****** up but to what kind?
When you know all the **** that's happening,
You will see all the suffering,
Then you won't be able to judge,
To know what's wrong or right,
Everything will be grey,
And we will all end up the same way.

I feel like I'm sleepless,
No smile,
Can't cry,
I'm just helpless,
There's nothing you can do about it,
Blood will be spilled,
You can cut yourself all the time,
If I will cut myself there will be no second chance,
I will leave a note don't worry,
Now I'm on a better place,
I won't be sorry,
Maybe here we can be together again,
See the future we wanted,
Then the ending​ we deserved.

I dated a girl once,
She was in my dream this night,
We were laughing,
And livin', together there was no difference,
But then something happened,
Someone entered,
The girls life,
Another better guy,
She gave me her look,
Like this ain't gonna work,
I busted out in tears wanted to go home and drink,
But I didn't go, I wanted to see him,
He was laying in bed with you sleeping,
He saw me I started screaming,
He started to choke you for some reason,
I just went straight for his face,
Beat him till I had no energy left,
Then I woke up here,
Please god just let me sleep.

And if you're still breathing, you're alive,
Don't dare to quit, make me proud,
Make everybody who doubted your​ smile,
Prove them wrong,
Show me what you got,
And if I will still be here to see it,
I will help you with the believing,
But this journey is yours to take,
I walked mine the same way,
When you will achieve it,
Don't thank me, I will be long gone,
Make somebody else to believe it,
Make somebody else this strong.

The things I wanted are now pointless,
Without you I feel like homeless,
Drinkin' till my feelings fade away,
I can't think of any other way,
I don't really want to live like this,
I wanted to be with you,
Have kids,
And else,
You know I make mistakes too,
I can't think of better ending,
Than with you,
The problem is you don't see it that way,
You feel like i have nothing to say,
I miss you,
I miss your voice,
The things we did together,
You were everything I had,
Now without anything it makes sence,
You know life is not always just sunshine,
It gets so dark sometimes,
Holding the knife I once used,
To hold all the issues​ and dark thoughs away,
Should I make me fade away?
Or does it have a end,
I would like to stay,
But I feel like you don't see it my way,
I know I've hurt you,
I lied to you,
But I didn't see back then,
That you were the girl I always wanted to stay,
Now I feel so worthless,
Everything's just useless,
When you ain't there,
I wish it could stay that way,
It once was,
I wish I would get a second chance,
To prove you how much I want you,
How much I adore you,
The things I said weren't fake,
But now you have a boyfriend,
I wish this suffering had a end.

I'm sorry for what I did to you,
I wish some things weren't so painful,
I needed some space to get my **** together,
But I should've done it some other way,
I know I've hurt you in every way,
I don't want your forgiveness,
I just wanted to let you know that you're a princess,
And that I regret smashing the best thing I had to pieces,
And that you should do what is best for you,
What you want to do,
Loving sometimes means to let go,
And I will understand if you don't want to try anymore,
When it was me who let you go.

You know how to be alone,
My hands are slipping from the Throne.
Ow how i feel alone,
The things i wanted go by,
You will never feel how am i,
These things are blurry on my mind,
Will I ever live to see my kind,
Or will I die?
These questions never dissapear,
Am i the only one to live to see the point,
Or will i die trying to be on front,
These things never dissapear,
My mind goes clear,
What do i want?
What's the point?
If i die nothing happens,
Just another soul will fade to no point,
If i lived for a reason why don't i see it,
Fading forever these reasons,
So be it,
I should live to see another reason.

Why are all the best memories,
The most painful to remember,
It seems like yesterday to me,
Saturday, it was december,
She had dark hair and such bright eyes,
I couldn't do anything to stop her from getting in my mind,
With just one simple smile she got me,
Yet she never intended to keep me,
It was cold and snowy,
The stars could tell the story,
We talked,
We hugged,
We kissed,
All these things I miss,
We told ourselves this is not the last time,
Yet I never saw her again,
Oh those past times,
The time flies by there is no doubt,
It was four years ago and now she's gone.