I ignore the lingering feeling of loss when I see your face, when we chatter away like nothing ever changed, when the echos of your laughter play in my head again
I ignore the feeling until someone lays it out in front of me in perfect words,
Heart-shattering reminder.
Even then,
You weren't really mine.
You have always been a bird in wide skies and I do want to see you fly
But I am flightless.
Reminder-
We must grow from our past
Not run back to it.
Nostalgia can be such a sweet-tasting poison.
I feel it eat away at me now.

Allow me to make a home for myself inside of your body
Somewhere in some cavity
Where I can be close to you and cozy
Let me latch on just tight enough
Let me memorize your voice
I do it without permission
From my host or from myself
This parasitic living
Will cause all of us hell

tell me what i am to you
it doesn't have to be a song, though your voice is lovely
i'm afraid our song is sung and what's said and done is Done
and even though i can't look at you without my heart trying to escape my chest i still don't know
so tell me what i am to you
a lover, a friend, a parasite
just tell me where we stand
you call the shots, i'll bite the bullet
feel the bleeding from the inside
it's easier than the unknown
so tell me what i am to you
i need to know, i need to know

Bring me peace, bring me closure
I'm tired of feeling territorial
Nothing belongs to me, nothing and no one
We are free spirits in a society which urges us to own
You are not mine, love
I'm still learning to be okay with that
I'm not sure if I'll ever adjust to being alone
Or if I'll ever conquer my fear of not being Enough
But I'd rather live with the weight and anxiety
Than try to tie down beauty
Art was never meant to live within restrictions
And you were never meant to be choreographed
So I will learn to to live with your eyes on other horizons
I just hope that you still see me in the stars