For a moment, I was sure you were going to die,
But I thought back on all I'd said to you.
All the things that mattered;
Your hands curling my arm in your sleep,
The sleepy kisses that followed.
You playing guitar and looking over at me in the moment I looked at you,
Your helpless face as you dream,
Splayed out and sighing.
And some moments that I shall never share.


I said I love you too many times today,
But in that moment
Where I thought you were going to die,
I was so glad for my tendency to repeat things.
*I love you.

Family,
Friends,
Lover,
Sister,
Mother and
Father,
My dear.

Christopher.
Bella.
Ross.
Jem.
Heather.
Ellen.
Alice.

We stand on ants,
We pinch and punch in the playground,
We kick and claw in alleyways,
Slap and bite in the bedroom.
Guns and bombs and knives,
We're all killers,
We're all cursed.

The justice you do at the seat of a piano.

There is so much I don't know,
So much I am unwilling to learn.
I won't understand,
Will never try to understand
Why people hurt each other.

Cowering in the corner
Of the chaotic chasm of time.
I fear the future, the promise
Of tomorrows.

The way you dance through the leaves
Of seasons, of time.
You are gliding, ripping up a dust of
Petals and Amber trees.
Give yourself the credit you deserve.
All these leaves are beautiful,
But you make them swirl and swarm.

The never ending inferno of chaos
And heat.
That we need to survive and thrive.
There are fires within us, combustion
And flames
To fill the hollow, to bring us warmth.

We needs goodbyes,
To write hello
On a new life,
A new dimension.

It finds us all in the end, doesn't it?

You are the sky I didn't know
I needed,
Raising and falling each day
And night.
With your nose in my hair
As you sigh in your sleep
And I am so **** lucky
You are mine to keep.

I am never going to be enough for you, honey.
Your arms are going to scar, and my heart
Is going to break,
Over and over and over again,
Because I can't take away your pain.

The first boy I thought I loved,
Kissed my unbroken heart
Until I bled my blues
And I slept in a kiss

But he broke up with me
For *minecraft.