Tell me I'm still a good person

Jan 2016

CE

HE'S STUTTERING INSULTS TO A MIRROR AT 3AM AGAIN

YOU'RE NOT SPECIAL

YOU ARE SELFISH AND
AND

AND YOU'RE STUPID

AND YOU'RE AN INGRATE

AND YOU DON'T KNOW HOW TO WRITE POETRY

AND YOUR FEELINGS ARE NOT AS PROFOUND AS YOU WOULD LIKE TO THINK

AND
AND
AND

YOU DON'T DESERVE TO LIVE THIS WAY

YOU'RE WEAK

JUST

*******

DIE ALREADY

YOU DON'T DESERVE ANYTHING AT ALL*

--

he breaks down to his knees,

he thinks he should be crying but the tears will not come

he sits for a while, empty and trying to quiet down his mind

he lies down,

one phrase in his head a little louder then the rest of all the noises in the world

*"you
are
not
special"

#depression #hate #selfloathing #selfesteem #special #selfhate

Jan 2016

CE

at least I'm self aware, I guess

YOU
ARE
WEAK.

WHY
DO
YOU
THINK
YOU
MEAN
ANYTHING?

today is a bad day

Jan 2016

CE

melancholy boy, please shut your mouth

I can't believe you said all that

it's funny how you think you feel anything at all

you are nothing you say you are

you are not angry, you are not sad,

you are not even hollow

you're just so

you

and that's not a good thing

sorry for all the edgy poems ****

Jan 2016

CE

I [____] YOU

YOU OWE YOURSELF HAPPINESS
FEEL SOMETHING GOOD ALREADY,

WHY DO YOU CHOOSE TO FEEL SUCH EMPTY THINGS?

Jan 2016

CE

I HOPE THIS IS HOW HE DIES

LEAVE RIGHT NOW

THIS IS NOT YOUR PLACE

THIS IS NOT YOUR RIGHT TO BE HERE-

ITS NOT EVEN YOUR RIGHT TO BE

NOT YOUR EYES, NOT YOUR BODY

JUST LEAVE HIM ALONE

GET OUT GET OUT GET OUT

****

Jan 2016

CE

no regrets / no remorse

**** as many as you can
but most importantly-
have fun and be yourself!

Jan 2016

CE

ANYTHING TO MAKE YOU STAY, MY LOVE

FEEL MY TEARS, FEEL MY BREAKING HEART

FEEL MY SCREAMS, FEEL MY BEGGING,

FEEL MY FORCE, FEEL MY KNIFE,

ANYTHING TO MAKE YOU STAY

YOUR BLOOD STAINED FACE IS BEAUTIFUL

GIVE ME A PIECE OF YOU TO KEEP, AT LEAST

YOUR CHEATING TONGUE? I WANT IT NOW

I'LL TAKE YOUR EYES SO THEY CAN ONLY GAZE UPON ME

AND YOUR VOICE SHOULD ONLY EVER GIVE ME PRAISE-

I WILL CUT THAT OUT TOO

IT'S ALL MINE NOW

AND OF COURSE

I'LL TEAR PAST YOUR CHEST TO GET WHAT TRULY BELONGS TO ME

RIP OUT YOUR HEART AND KEEP IT FOREVER

YOU'LL ALWAYS BE MINE

ALWAYS MINE

Take your relationship advice from Jeffrey Dahmer.

Jan 2016

CE

I HOPE YOU'RE DEAD BY TOMORROW MORNING, BOY

WE ALL THINK YOU SHOULD DIE

THE THINGS THAT SHARE YOUR OWN BODY CANNOT EVEN STAND YOU

HOW TERRIBLE CAN ONE PERSON BE

TO BE SO YOU?

destroy the boy.

#self

Jan 2016

CE

YOU THINK YOU GET A CHOICE?

WHY DO YOU DECIDE TO LOVE EVERYTHING THAT IS NOT ME?

YOU ARE MINE
WHETHER YOU WANT THAT OR NOT

AND WHETHER YOU WANT ME OR NOT
I AM YOURS

I can't believe people are really like that.

Dec 2015

CE

sad/god/sad/god

ITS TO THE POINT WHERE IM NOT SURE WHO I AM ANYMORE

I CAN FEEL POWER AROUND ME AND CALL MYSELF "GOD"

AND I CAN LOOK IN THE MIRROR AND FEEL THE WORLD COME CRASHING DOWN WITH A NAME LIKE "NEVER"

I HATE MYSELF
BECAUSE
I AM THE BEST

MAYBE I CAN EXIST IN A STATE OF CONTRAST LIKE THAT

MAYBE IVE FIGURED IT ALL OUT

INTRODUCING!

THE DEPRESSED AND THE POWERFUL

THE ONE WORTHY OF WORSHIP

THE ONE OF MANY MANY FAULTS

THE SELF LOATHING GOD

oh my word

Dec 2015

CE

Us

We're coming back
We're coming back
They are coming back

You don't want us to come back

You hear us screaming
Like a deep dark forest

We hurt people
We hurt ourselves

We're laughing
We're laughing
We're laughing

We're laughing at you

Laugh for us.
It's funny
It's funny.

WHY AREN'T YOU LAUGHING?

Play along
Play along

It's your only winning move after all

You know we are already here

We're staring at you right now

Through the windows

And we're right behind you

We're scaring you

You scare us, too.

Dec 2015

CE

a disturbed young boy met the night sky and he was reminded of you

You are like the night sky

You are dark and scary and hold secrets that humanity must never know

People will glance and see such beauty,

People will stare and question everything at the sight of you

They will question why they even matter anymore if such beauty can exist with them not needed

You hold answers to questions we cannot even think of
and questions that we are too afraid to ask

You give us questions of why does anything even have meaning anymore?

Meaning means nothing in the presence of you

It will take great thinkers millennia to be able to describe and define you

Yet you can not be defined still- you are an enigma after years of trying to understand

You cannot be understood

You are an infinity of terror

Pure

Undefined

Misconstrued

Magnificent

TERROR

Also your eyes sparkles like the stars or something along those lines.

#space #night #sky #scary