Where to go
How to be
When to show
How to please
One more step
In this direction
Clueless but
Got your attention
Good enough
Or so it seems
Happy now
But by extremes
Reality says
Nothing at all
But that's because
I don't answer it's call.

Small words exchanged
With the spaces and marks
Though nothing's changed
No longer in the dark
Now sharing thoughts
And news always there
Doesn't explain the loss
Of his despair.

Her letters so neat
Put together; no other.
But not always complete
Still stuck in her suffer
To help.  My goal.
Even though I may gain
In persisting to console
Must continue in the game.

Rules in the way
Head filled to the brim
So when appearing grey
All doubt fills him.
Second-guessing.  Incorrect?
Impossible to know.
Unable to collect
Her feelings down below.

Head over heels?
Falling indefinitely, it seems.
No control.  No appeal.
Too open by all means.

The longer I breathe
Without You
The harder I seem
To try
The more I think
About you
The higher I want
To fly

The higher I want to fly
The higher I want to go
To a place where we're together
To a place where we're alone

A place too often dreamt of
A place not think nor thin
To see your face up close
To see your shining skin

Skin perfected in its flaws
Skin abused but not forgotten
Lost to cope with her anxiety
Lost herself in great depression

Together or alone
Difference only in the name
But time and love are one
One question still remain

Will you return the love?

There's a lot going through my mind right now.
Right now at 8 a.m.
8 a.m. the morning after.
After the pillows laid rest on their heads.
Heads full of dreamy thoughts, and actions that came to match.
Match that lit the fire, which heated only for a while.
While the two shared it's heat, and words with one another.
Another night alone together.
Together will they be, after sun first sheds its light?
Light bringing reality, discarded by the night.
Night of sudden growth.
Growth of sudden life.
Life internal once aglow, but now covered in dismay.
Dismay in what stays.
Stays alive when nothing does.
Does the heart know any limits?
Limits broken by the two, but not regretted.
Regretted past, onward to the future.
Future unknown, but hopeful.
Hopeful together.
Together.

Maybe we weren't meant to be
Refusing I wanted more
Maybe I didn't choose to see
You weren't knocking at my door

Maybe the future holds
More passion than I know
Maybe I need not be so cold
Loving again like long ago

Maybe I am lost
Forever in the darkest night
Maybe I don't see the cost
In letting go and losing right

Maybe words can't come to life
When trying to explain
The feelings left unsaid 
And a girl whose love is pain.

The end, the end
Oh, why pretend?
Sadness, madness
To hell with the gladness
I can't stand to lose
What I never gained
But in the end it all seems vein.
No more, no more
No time for pain
No nothing's gained, but for the rain
The wind, the stars, the moon, the sun
Love's eternal.  No room for none.

Every time I lay down I've been thinking of you
The thing about us is 1 + 1 still equals 2
2 together growing older
Still maturing, staying younger
Sharing what we have to give and loving more than we probably should
But I find that that is better than feeling misunderstood.
And I hope that what we have will stay true for what it's worth;
Hurt may come our way soon but I am always in rebirth.
Who I am and who I've been may come together through us,
So no matter what's been said I will always share trust.
With you I am happy and in life I am free,
To give what I have.  That is my one plea.

Little words, big feelings, got you in a mess.
So much to love but when it don't bring success
You tend to crash and fall and burn but baby that's ok;
I feel your pain too, and I promise that I'll stay.
Meaning has no meaning in the things you never sad,
But when it comes to you and me, I think we're better in the bed.
Don't confuse me now, because it's hope that brings together,
Pretending it was charm when it was really that old letter
We would not be here, not be talkin'
All the same without the stoppin'
Just to say "Hi, how are you?" and be off
And then I realize how it is and what I really do.
I know you'll never read this but I hope that you dream too.

What words can't describe,
Is too often what's inside
Breaking apart the inner pure,
Destroying every single door.
Isolating all that's known,
Defying the science of the grown.

But as chaos makes his home,
The pen finds his poem,
And together they'll coincide
Inside the eyes of the blind
Until we learn to see what's true.

I can't say I love the world or that I've made it any better
But believe me when I say I try with every letter
I do what I do not only for myself
The care I have for you in my heart has no stealth
It's no good inside, so whether you like me,
I'm just trying to provide for you.
Appreciation can be a motivation
When I try to handle all the satisfaction
I get from within,
So stop trying to win
Just join the revolution
Rebel the evolution
And embrace this universe in **peace

I want to float away
Into the clouds of scattered grey
See the world from a new view
No worries, nothing true
Have chaos by my side
And nature be my bride
I could reclaim the wanted
Destroy the past of me unhaunted
Break the chains of happiness
Adopt the feeble loneliness
Watch the sun without control
And accept the wind as my soul

Then you shall bury me
Peacefully.

It shouldn't hurt
It shouldn't burn
But it does.
I shouldn't be mad
I shouldn't be depressed
But I am.
You shouldn't speak
You shouldn't influence
But you do.
Love shouldn't survive
Love shouldn't capture
But love does.
My mind shouldn't justify
My heart shouldn't hope
But they do.
So where does that leave... us?

The scent of you is like a fall into pain.
Memories flood my mind in a rush of sweet rain
The future is bright because I've learned so much
But her skin is still flawless to every single touch.
Death I have conquered and alive I am still
Except now I'm scarred and controlled by will.
Begging in the street isn't my choice any more.
What you did to me shook me straight to the core...