She was once a strong woman,
Over time she grew weak,
But that isnt quite the truth,
Because,
As her body grew weak,
Her heart grew strong,
She was an angel on Earth,
Now she will be an angel else where,
As sad as it is to see her go,
Think,
Atleast she is no longer in pain,
Someone who has been here,
My entire life and longer
I dont know how im going to cope,
As long as i do cope,
I think she will be happy,
She was loved by everyone,
I never heard her name spoken negatively,
She had no enemies,
Her heart was open,
She doesn't care about your past,
She loved everybody no matter,
Now she must leave this world,
But she remains in the hearts,
She left us her memories,
She changed us all,
She no longer has to be afraid,
She no longer needs to suffer the pain,
It's hard to believe she is flying with the angels,
But she was an angel,
Put here on Earth,
Now she will be deeply missed,
Rest In Peace.
December 20, 1950
May 9, 2013

Silence and ***** looks
That's all we seem to be now
It used to not be like this
But it got like this somehow
We went form being best friends
To you barely looking my way
What did I do to deserve this?
Was it something I did or said?
Is there any way to resolve this?
So I don't lose my best friend…
Could we put aside our differences
So this friendship doesn't end?
Because you see this is really hurting me
I can't stand to be treated this way
It happened in the past
Where a "friend" stopped giving me the time of day
I wish that you would talk to me
So we could work whatever this is out
But instead you're just ignoring me
And constantly shutting me out
Hopefully we'll resolve this
And maybe be friends again
And maybe one day I'll be able to
Once again say that you're my best friend.

What a beautiful sunny day
Sitting in a garden
Sipping a cup of icy cool lemon tea…
Reminiscing the good old days…

You and I..
We used to walk hand in hand..
On summer's days … spring days and everyday…
enjoying the breathtaking view of your South Country
Colorful tulips, roses and daisies…
The lush green grass covered the earth…
The chirping birds on trees…
The nature's beauty that I will never forget
Tranquility as you said…
I had peace of mind and enjoyed my daily walk with you

I remember how you used to amuse me
A bouquet of pink and red roses
Your marvelous smile and a gentle kiss..
Special roses from you delivered with love for me
We walked down the stream
Down the trail deep in the forest
If there was a misty rain
We danced and played in the rain and laughed
Without anyone else around
You and me, just us…two..

In a dreamy state of mind I am today
Remembering you and all the good times
How could I relive those days all over again..
My feet are too numb… my body is too weak
To walk, to dance with you in the misty rain once again…
Who will amuse me with the red and pink roses again?
Today.. I am sitting in your garden
Everything still look the same.. Except for you aren't here
You wouldn't be here, never will be…
Twenty years ago I had loved you…
In October rain you were taken away…
I am left alone to reminisce the days…
Come summer, winter, autumn and spring days…
A hundred or a thousand more years..
I promise you that my love will remain… unchanged…
Look honey! It's the misty rain again…

You are crushed in my mind,
We are frozen in time.
I feel like I can never forget you,
You make me feel alive.
I'm amazed, how you attracted me.
It must be that smile,
The one that warms my heart
And soothes my emotions.
Although I used to have you,
I love what we had.
I think about it as a winning.
I won't regret anything.

the buildings towered over her
the water kept her there
she was trapped on this island
filled with panic and despair

no one could come save her
no one even cared

She couldn't read
Her tales were the greatest
She couldn't write
Her words were written in our hearts
She didn't go to school
Her teachings made us human
She never traveled
Her journey of life motivated us
She didn't know Martha Stewart
She kept the house in superb condition
She never watched Rachel Ray
Her cooking was FIVE STAR
She didn't need a degree
She sent us to university
She stayed at home
She told us to venture and have careers...
She didn't need alarm clock
She was our wake up call
Go to school time, brushing teeth time, prayer time, reading Quran time, breakfast, lunch, tea, dinner, bed time, all the time....
Mom never failed to be with us....
Even today still ...
she is always in the best place in our hearts...

A prayer to my mom Hajjah Hasiah binti Majid... Rest in peace...

Because I never got to say goodbye
This letter is all the reasons and feelings I kept inside.
I took for granted our youth and the promise of tomorrow.
Now every day I am drowning in this sorrow.
I thought you would always be there, always care, always listen, always be my shoulder to lean on.
I never imagined in the blink of an eye you would be gone.
This is the hardest letter I have ever had to write,
I just hope you know my heart even though you are no longer in my sight.
Every moment that became a memory is so very precious to me.
Even though our time together on this earth was short, I will cherish every laugh, every smile
every sweet word you gave to me.
The time we spent in Virginia was like heaven to me.
Walking hand in hand.
Laughing, talking, sharing, embracing, kissing
The rest of the world ceased to exist.
Or the walk through the park as you put your arms around me to keep me warm.
Or Sunday afternoon having coffee and conversing for hours.
You gave me hope and another way to view this cruel world.
You gave me strength to finally stand up for myself,
even though I never told you .
You brought out the best in me.
My world is so much darker without your light.
You had the kindest heart.
I will miss you always and I pray that I can hold the memories of you
like a movie in my mind to play over and over until we meet again.
Know that you took a piece of my heart with you.
I love you Jonathan. And I will hold that love in my heart until my days on this earth have ended.

I know an infant
who came into this world
with a smile on her face
on the eleventh hour
of the eleventh day
of the eleventh month
bringing joy and happiness
to a day of sadness
and there were no tears
no screaming or confusion
just silence
and a look of wonder could be seen in her eyes
she was ready to start this wonderful world.

I know a child
who was the class clown
always ready to crack a new joke
or turn someone's frown upside down
she wished her baby fat would soon go away
but shrugged it off
'cause she knew it would some day
tears were only shed over scraped knees
and mom's soothing words
would set her at ease
no insecurities, no worries
she had her whole life ahead of her.

I know a teenager
who was no longer the class clown
but instead a shy girl
with very few friends still hanging around
she thought she was fat
(even though she was at average weight)
and felt different from the others
still laughing, still smiling
and the tears didn't fall
'til she was alone in her bedroom
but she stayed strong through it all
hoping that life would soon be better.

I know a young adult
who sits alone in class
stressed about choosing a career
for a future that she doesn't want to be a part of
she starves because she's fat
(even though she's below average weight)
wearing long sleeved shirts to hide the scars
that trail up and down her arms
friends mistake her fake smiles as happiness
oblivious to the desperation in her laugh
the façade wears off when she gets home
and her broken heart splits in half
while she wishes that her life would end.

But the thing is...

I know that infant
as if she was born yesterday
and I know that child
as if I saw her on the street an hour ago
and I know that teenager
as if I passed her in the halls today
and I know that young adult
as if she is someone I'll meet tomorrow

They are my past
my present
and my future
they are the person I was
the person I am
and the person I will be

*That girl is me and always will be
unless I find the strength to change reality.