I’m at the edge of regret and relief
The thin lines are growing on its cliff
Do I let myself fall into despair
Or crawl back into the arms of peace
Her arms are cold, where they were once warm
And her eyes bottomless are red red red
Where is the anger
It’s in her eyes
Where is the frustration
It’s in her arms
She’s tired
I’m tired
So I let myself fall
And I hope I don’t regret that too

I think I’ll always be the one standing at the edge of the crowd laughing at the jokes people tell without me.

I want to dig myself a hole
And just lie in it until it stops
Let the comfort of the soil make me grow
Till I sprout
Earth
Let your earthworms work to cultivate
Because I'm coming home
I feel it
I just don't  want to be at my hands

"I want to be somebody to someone
I just wanna be someone "
It wraps around my thoughts
Wrapping them in chains
I'm locked in myself
"YOURE the problem "
Am I?

Maybe
If she could just LET me grow...
If she could just LET me breathe...
"But she is you and you is I
We're entwined together forever
You
and I "

​Something I'll always remember is the relief of letting go

And the panic of falling after

All I had was holding on

And now it's just air wind, and it whistles

It whistles in my ears, making my thoughts seem louder

Did I time it right

Should I have

I'll never know now will I

The ground rushes from below and  I'm not sure if it's soft enough will someone catch me will someone see me hello it seems I'm on my own I can scream but the wind takes my voice and puts it in its pocket pats it and that's when I realise I am screaming

I'm not falling and I'm actually just in the meadow dreaming about letting go

and the flowers wave from side to side their whispers reaching me

Crazy that one she is

My heart was racing but now it has stopped, and I realize

I realize I've just made a fool, and the fool is me

My cheeks redden and I bow my head

The curtains close

Acta est fabula