"what's wrong with you?"
Was all you said

"We were best friends"
Was what you said when you found out

"You always do this"
Was what you said when you heard

"Your nobody to me anymore"
Was what you said when he told you

All this happened because we liked the same boy

I turned him down because of you,
But you didn't want to believe

Our friendship ruined because,
We liked the same boy

Remember what happened last year?
Maybe not Let me remind you

It started during Spring semester
I had crush on you
Badly

I remember my friends encouraging me,
I wrote you a letter confessing my feelings
Giving you my number and name only

You read it and left it on the table,
Wrong choice

Your friends shared that information with everyone they knew

Messages and messages of unknown numbers
Asking who I was

I found your number and you said,
"I want to get to know you,Zoe"

It was too late
Because I thought you were a ****
Someone who was making fun of me,
My feelings.

Now we go to the same school,
But I bring myself to wonder
What would happen if i responded with a yes.

Okay I'm stupid for thinking that,
But every time I see you now
I want you.

I always liked you,
and threw hints at you

I showed you my love,
Expressed it

I wrote you poems,
And poems of love

I gifted you things
Things of love

But you had a problem
You were oblivious

I admire from afar
Yet you never notice me
I pray someday you do

I want to confess my feelings
But you might not care
I hope someday I can

You are my crush
But instead of confessing to you
I crush my feelings

So everything I see you
I can't bring my self to confess to you

I was always there for you,
When you needed me the most
I never left you.

But then you met her,
You stopped talking to me
Even ignored me.

The day I needed you the most,
You weren't there and instead
You were with her.

It made me feel different,
Like someone who never existed
I felt worthless.

Stupid even to think you'll be there for me,
But you were with her instead.

When I first met you I fell in love
I didn't know who you were,
neither did I care

We spent a lot of time together
and feel harder for you,
Every time our eyes locked

At first it was cliche to think we would last,
I was stupid I know
but you can't blame me for being delusional.

When you look at someone
I want to be looked at

When you smile
I want the smile

When you laugh
I want the laugh

When you walk away
I want to chase

When you love someone
I want it to be me

Its selfish to think, to even want you
because at the end
it's her and not me.

I remember the day you told me you loved me
I thought you did,
But you didn't.

You never loved me
I was stupid to think you did
You never loved me.

I remember when you called it over
With a simple word,
Sorry.

Every time I hear that word
That stupid word,
I break down.

I hate to think I was the one for you
I can't bring myself to accept it,
I denied it.

I look at pictures we once took together
The presents you once gave me,
It's all in the same place you left them
I can't get rid of them,
not now not never.

I see you smiling with a girl that isn't me,
Its stupid I know
but how can you move on so fast?

I know it's pathetic
You never loved me and I will never understand
Your game.

A game where you come out satisfied and I come out hurt
I don't deny it anymore I know your game,
I understand I was just another one of your games.

It's sad I know but now I look back at my mistakes
I was blinded by your game
it made me understand something,
You never loved me you only loved the way you toyed with me.

I look up at the sky
I don't want to look at you,
It sickens me to even know you're next to me.

I can't bring myself to look at you,
You are still the same.

You lied when you said you changed,
I feel for your trick again.

I feel stupid for trusting you and thinking you changed
I hate myself for thinking you would ever change.
I was an idiot.

literature has many uses in life
but I like literature for one thing,
love.

Sometimes I look back at time and remember why I like literature,
it reminds me of you.

The way you wrote poems and stories,
the way your writing expressed your feelings
helped me realize you always loved me.

You wrote me poems and poems expressing your feelings,
at the time I was an idiot that didn't understand
literature.

I now love literature but it's too late now.

I was late on catching your feelings,
And now i know you loved me
But it's late,
You moved on.

It's the first snow of winter today
for the first time this year,
it felt like something was missing.

The snow was calm and steady,
soft and melty.

It was delicate with every touch,
every touch of snow I felt reminded me of tears
tears that brought me back to reality.

I was really missing something,
no not something.

I was missing someone,
I was missing you.

I never really hated the rain,
until I met you.

You loved the rain,
so did I.

You took me out on rainy days,
went on walks in the rain,
even danced in the rain.

Now I see you with another girl doing the same things,
now I hate the rain,
more than I hate you for leaving.