when you stare
pay attention
when you think
when you act

are you aware
of this dimension
into metaphysical reality

i feel it all
i live within duality
a know it all
and i know i get distracted

and i say lifes not fair
but i want to be proactive
because i really do care

even if its only for a moment
and i feel fear
and i feel empty,
and i shed tears

now is the moment
to think about the years
into the future
where i'll disappear

do you care?
if you really do care,
why don't you act?
and you say you do act,

why don't you try?
i know the lie
i know i live
in a completely separate life

I genuinely hate you.

When she sleeps
When she is sick
I am the quiet angel
That cleans the mess
And takes care of her
And feeds her breakfast
Sometimes

I like when she doesnt let herself go
I like how she is when my dad is gone
She leaves me alone
Just how I want to be
Our relationship is broken
And we try to love each other
Through distant ways

With that housekeeper look
She is ugly
But when she is free
Like a dove in flight
She is beautiful.

I have a lot of hatred
But I have to heal my family

Even though all of this has been said
I do not forgive her.

I hate it
I am
A perfectionist
In the worst way
Possible.

Trying to go
Back in time
To restart my life
And make everything perfect.

Trying to fix other people
And make them perfect.
I dont know
How to stop.

I dont want to be
Who I am.

A life full of tears.

i feel like all the pain i held onto is releasing itself like a tight, sore, overworked muscle

fake me
i read the words on the screen
through other peoples eyes
i tell myself i'm being authentic
like everyone else,
i lie

but i don't know who i am
i'm feeling middle-aged
and my sexuality and soul
is feeling pretty caged

i'm feeling pretty fake
so fake me
mistake me
misplace me
or take me
away

somewhere far with all my things
i wanna be a stray
i wanna make love in an open land
and run my fingers through the sand
no one in this world will understand
me except my man

Elephant me
Elephant you
Elephant she,
Elephant you, who?

I'm the elephant in this room
In a cage

**** and blood
On the floor
Bang my head against the doors
Metal bars and peanut shells
For an elephant, it's a living hell.

Fleshy beasts
Sit and stare
I'm having a nightmare, I'm scared
I'm the elephant within this cage
Kids think I'm fluffy and that I don't rage.

No ***, no sleep,
This is how they keep me.
The drugs are the only thing that make me sleepy
But the humans are the only ones who are sleeping,
And other elephants are the only ones worth seeing

If I'm not reading, I'm too busy weeping
My blood, sweat, and tears, they keep cleaning

I'm too stressed out to start eating
And they whip me in the knees,
I'm a weakling.

Getting thin,
Growing old,
Iron's hot,
But I'm cold
Breathing in
Dust and mold
Party hat
Feeling bold

Elephant me
Elephant you
Elephant she,
Elephant you, too?

I'm an animal,
And a clown.
And my skin's not the only thing that's gray
And brown.

I look down
My heart pounds
I cant hear the sound, I'm deaf
And I can barely take a breath
Cause the air is thin like death
But I'm a wearing a pretty wreath


EYEBROWS
BRAIN COLLAPSE
FLASHING LIGHTS
BARS BENT
CANDY
FENTANYL
CIRCUMVENT
MONKEYS SCREAM
PEOPLE HAVE ***
M&MS
SYNONYMS
INDIVIDUALS
IDIOMS
IDIOTS
PENDULUMS
TIME SWINGING
GRANDFATHER CLOCK
SOMEDAY
I'LL BE FREE
A SUNDAY
MY ELEPHANT
MAN WITH ME
ONE KID
AND A BALLOON
ELEPHANT DEATH, SHE DIES TOO SOON
AMAZON
POSTERCARD
ELEPHANT STICKER BREAKS HER HEART
ELEPHANT MAN
ELEPHANT KIN
BRAIN TINY, SKIN TIN
ELEPHANT ME,
ELEPHANT YOU
ELEPHANT SHE
ELEPHANT TOO.

ELEPHANT FREE.

My love
Come back to me
Im sorry for
Running away in tears,
And I don't know what to expect.

If I talked to you,
Would you welcome me with open arms?
Would you say the same things you said before?
I know you don't love me anymore

Oh, my love,
It's the only thing I've ever wanted
And not having it leaves me haunted
Im turning into a sunflower, getting jaundice
Turning colorful, turning yellow

Getting sick and becoming mellow
Tell your lover I said "Hello"
I'll stay watching from my meadow
While you and her settle
Im blowing steam like a kettle
I'm so hot for you babe

My love
Please come back to me
I miss the snickering,
And the bickering
And the times you made me mad

But I remember the lying,
And the crying,
And the times you made me sad

But oh how I miss the good days,
The average days,
No they weren't so bad.

And yes, I am truly mad.

Because I still love you
And adore you
Like the time never passed.

I can't leave the past in the past,
Oh, please just come back.

A beauty
with curves
and skin
brown
like the earth
mixed with clay
and her eyes
shaped like big almonds
with eyelashes
like black butterflies
fluttering
on her face
her ******* are milky
her waist
is wide
her hips
are even
with a gap
between her thighs
her lips
are luscious
she kills
with her smile
her gaze
is deadly
her legs
are long
she looks
like a painting
she walks
with grace
her flesh
is glowing
the world
is erased
when she dances
its hyponotizing
when she stops
time freezes
with her playful feet,
and her hands so neat,
she flirts
and teases.

when I saw my name
I felt a surge of electricity
I was shocked
at my own power

I used to be in love
I used to be connected to you
I'd wake up ready for your message
patiently waiting for you to get back to me
even though we were far away

glass shards in my bed
reflect my body and skin
make me bleed and itch
broken memories in my head