The day after
Independence Day
a paroxysm
of sparks
from a lit
fuse of
natal celebration
re-echoed pressure
in my skull
fireworks fulminated
directly over my head
painting an abyssal
night sky
neon splattered
inapt colors
reminding me
of my countries
bloodshed.
If pills tasted
like the
ice cream cake
melting
in the middle
of the road
maybe it
wouldn't be.
The man
I've loved
has a warm smile
from the open flame
atop his head
and a magical sundry
of plié-like movements.
Entrancing perfection
a self-inflicted hypnosis
unbroken left me desperate
for personal perfection.
When a Phoenix rebirths
it has been written the
amassing thickets shed
a layer of their earth's green.
Though, a Phoenix is deific,
Wildfire befit my epithet.
Emerging life was a grace
of kindness when my laxness
engrossed, and
malfeasant memories
of the neurotypical
remain to unsettle, but
a blowsy man regrets not.
Exemption finds me not
in the arms of grace
but true despairing.
Timelessness is a disservice
to progress, and age sheds
light upon transgression.
This is my only accomplishment