Roses,
Proses,
Causes,
Losses.

My
                     Mind
                                                               Is
Everywhere

                                          I
                                                                                    Am
So
                       Stressed
                                                                    Out
A
                                             Week
            Of
                                                                                                      Rest
                          Is                                                  Not
                                       Enough
How
                   To
           Stop                                Overthinking
                                                                                     My                      Head
                                Hurts             So
Bad
                  I                                                Am
                        
                          Not
              
         Okay
                                                                   I                                         Need
        To                    Stop
                
                     For              

                                                                    A          
Moment                       And      
                                                                                          Take
                         A                                                Deep                                                
                            

                                                               Breathe
This
                    

                                Is                                                     Some

Random                                  
                                                      Blurted
          
                       Thoughts
        
                                                                                         That
Can                                             Be
                                
                 Read
                                                                               In
                                           So
                                                                                                            Many

Ways

only half i see
only half your beauty
a painting so gorgeous
half is dark and dangerous

such side must be filled
with broken pieces
with broken bones
with a broken soul

you bloom with so many roses
with thorns to defend you
strong and well guarded
yet you cry and die inside

Red roses, purple skies
Yellow lanterns like stars up high
Blue moon, white smiles
Loud laughter heard from miles

Green auroras, orange sunset
There is nothing to regret
Gold rings, silver necklace
Your value will never be less

Scarlet dress, lilac flowers
Princess pink confetti showers
Dream eyes, daisy halo
You're such a pumpkin cause I say so

Peach powder, scent of lavender
Who knew you are lovelier
Crimson lips, plum nails
The journey of life you shall sail

Eighteen colors,
You are described
Eighteen years,
You are alive

Your tears felt like acid on my skin.
You knew how I am.
You pushed all the right buttons.
All my buttons that let you in.

You changed things without me noticing.
Though you really think I wouldn't?
I definitely did, you just didn't know.
I made you think I was ceasing.

Your silence is my punishment.
Lost myself in the process.
There's no one to come back to.
My old self is gone in an instant.

I took you by surprise!
You definitely saw the hatred in my eyes.
I just didn't have the words to let you know.
IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT! now you know.

Every night,
She is always in my mind.
Every night,
I always wish to be with her.

I loved her since then.
I never gave up on her.
She knows that I love her.
She knows that I am totally hers.

I met her when we're young.
She was just on her sweet sixteen.
I was just fourteen,
Young and dumb I was.

I will never forget her starry eyes,
When I first gazed into it.
Then and only then I knew,
I have finally found my one and only.

She's the girl of my dreams <3
She's the queen of my kingdom <3
She's the mother of my kids <3
She's the light of my home <3

Her name is Abby <3
My one and only. <3