should I travel far enough into space
there would be a time in autumn after 8,
where I'd sneak out of bed as a child,
drunk on sleep and counting sheep
in warm pyjamas and bare feet
I'd often long for those times
when the world changed after night
and the carbonation of fuzzy TV screens
became a portal to my own magical world
of dragons and fairies and other flying creatures

These days she has her eyes half-closed
As if she could only bear to see half the world
And these days she says
She would rather feel pain over this numb
As she slices herself open
In search of a better layer of skin
Like a moulting spider, upturned, and hanging from a branch.

two years ago
my dad lost his tooth
to a bowl of fried rice
he said he likes it now
the gap in his smile
a void always left unfilled

My guy, trust me when I say
“I don’t wanna die,” because I don’t
-but, if you thought I did, then
Maybe you’re the kind of someone that
Watches raindrops race each other
To death. Would it be so hard to turn
Your eyes into reservoirs;
Exchange those glances for words because
I don’t know how much longer
I can hold out. I don’t wanna die
But I’m so ******* lonely
That I just might have to cease
To exist
Because no-one knows I do
And honestly neither do I.