i don't deserve the comfort of sadness,
i don't deserve the pain of emptiness.
i don't deserve the quiet of peace,
i don't deserve the clamour of fear.
i don't deserve the futility of help,
i don't deserve the worth of growth.
i don't deserve the consistency of love,
i don't deserve the finality of death.
i deserve to live -
07.08.20
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am i being selfish? i can't live like this, well i can, but i don't want to. yet, at the same time, how dare i choose not to live? i don't deserve that choice. i deserve to live like this. it's the only thing i truly deserve.
right?