by 0 members Sobriety is such a misunderstood concept, and it wasn't until it became a central part of my life did I truly understand just how complex and misunderstood it has been. Alcoholism and substance abuse do not represent a particular environment that one was raised in, nor is it something that "dumb teens" get into just to look cool (well some do, but that's definitely not what this is collection is about).
When you hold so much pain and trauma from your personal experiences, sometimes these substances are the only form of support that you have. I mean, it takes away the pain and the bad memories so why not? It's not some angsty teen shit, I'm a fucking survivor. Maybe one day I'll write about these experiences, but even I think its to graphic to comfortably express. And I know that some people have also been in scary, twisted and traumatising situations as well which lead to substance dependency and abuse.
Sobriety is a journey. There will be highs and lows, periods where you are so heavily reliant on drugs and periods where you are able to stay away from it. There's no shame in relapse. It takes so much fucking strength so if you are going through it as well, I am so damn proud of you.
DISCLAIMER: This is not a cry for help. Poetry is my therapy, and I can only reflect once I read over the word vomit that I spew from my fucked up brain. If you are contemplating life or starting to use drugs, please seek help. I'm here to give those who are going through something similar a calming voice that tells them they aren't alone. I'm in NO way condoning this behaviour.
Enjoy, and have a blessed day.
- LDP
