I am broken, bruised, scarred, and bleeding -- I do not deserve the love you give to me on a silver platter.

My fingertips have grazed every inch of your skin, but I just can't get enough

Your bones shift under tanned skin
and I want to melt into you, to morph our bodies together until neither of us know who is who

I've kept to myself
Never showing too much
But you've picked at the scabs
Pried into my head
And now you're trapped

How will you get out?

Making friends is like
building up castles from sand...
With one sweep of the hand
or one whisper from the lips
and the castle comes crashing down,
tumbling into your lap
and leaving you
helpless.
I promise that I won't
let this castle fall
or get the slightest bit
damaged.

You make me happy. Really happy. The kind of happiness I can feel in the center of my chest, a warmth that just sits there and grows whenever you call me baby or say that you love me. I always want to be with you, even when I'm on my period and don't even want to leave my house. There is nothing I enjoy more than just laying around with you and simply being with you. your smile makes me smile. I could listen to your laugh all day. I like everything that differentiates you from me. I like that you play video games and soccer and that you watch all these shows and movies on Netflix. I like that you listen to 90s alternative rock because I've never heard of 95% of the songs and artists you've introduced me to. With differences, there are similarities and I like them just as much. I like that our sense of humor is so alike. It's like we're always in an inside joke and no one else knows what the hell we're laughing at. I like that you say cheeky things at ten at night and seven in the morning and two in the afternoon.

God, I just... I like you. I might love you. I'm falling for you and ****, I hope you catch me.

I am undeserving
of the sweet words you say
and the pure air you breathe  
and the love you give

My heart is still cracked and you say you understand but you don't not really and I wish I could make you but I couldn't hurt anyone like that I wish you knew I wish I could tell you I wish I wasn't afraid I wish I wish I wish I loved you as much as you say you love me but I'm afraid to let you in and I'm afraid to give you the power to hurt me because last time I did that I was fatally wounded and I can't bleed out again my heart can't take it

My heart is bursting like a dam
and I'm not repairing it, no,
I will let the bombs detonate  
and watch as my love for you
seeps from the cracks in the cement