I don't remember his face
I tried my hardest to block it out
In the black in the back of that delivery truck
I fought and I fought but I was but a mere girl
I was 12 years old
See No Child Left Behind Had come along
And everyone thought it was the best thing ever
But they didn't teach a course on how not to get *****
I didn't know
So I didn't share
I held it in and i coped the only way i knew how
Every single night I slid that blade across my skin
And the red would come
Unfailing
I couldn't count on my savior in the back of that truck
But the red
The red was unwavering
My poor poor Innocence
Lost and alone
I had no choice but to replace you with Pain
The pain that clouded my mind
And prevented me from reliving that moment when
My dear dear Innocence
Lost and afraid
I had no choice but to replace you with Liquid Courage
Nothing mattered when he was around
My sweet sweet Innocence
Gone eternally
I had no choice but to replace you with the same amount of destruction that made me loose you

Come to me my love
Find your way back to me my sweet
I used to fight you off
Now you've stopped coming
I want you here
I need you here
I'm not the same with out you
I'm delirious in your absence
My night-time companion
Just visit one last time
Give me a chance at peace just once more

I don't know why I thought I mattered
I don't know why I thought you cared
Excuse me

I love you too
I'm fine I'm just tired
My cat scratched me
Lie lie liar. Liar, you'll pay for your sins.

Go to sleep crying
Wake up
Crying
Because I woke up
They walk in and I smile
I talk
I laugh at their jokes
Crack a few of my own
But then they leave
And I cry
Because I'm so good
I'm so ******* good at looking okay,
I can't be helped
Seemingly perfect on the outside but
If you roll up my sleeves
If you looked at the scars
You'd realize
People in life are more ****** up than they appear