The Sea is my serenity
The warm summer breeze is my reprieve
I long to hear the rolling waves
These are some of my favorite days

I know I can't stay here by the ocean so blue
I have to go home to a houseful of gloom

I will savor these moments
Forever in my head
It was good while it lasted
A least that's what they said

It's three am
My day has just begun
A million things run through my head
while the rest of the world is still in bed

I cant stop thinking
My mind is full
It's overflowing
Seeping through my skull

I wish I could turn it off
but I have no choice but to carry this cross

I write and I write
Until my fingers bleed
My pen runs dry
I have no reprieve

This is what my life has become
A poet, a writer?
Or a dreamer, dancing to the beat of a different drum...

A clear crisp sky, stars shining bright
Moon glistens softly, on this hot summer night

All I can think of is you in my arms
The time we snuggled up in the barn

Only you can make me smile
Only for you I would walk for miles

I want to be with you safe and warm
High above any storm

I want one more chance for true romance
Take me darling, for one more dance

I’m not happy
I’m extremely mad
I just lost the best thing I ever had

It amazes me
I really don’t know
How I could have ever let you go

I think it’s time to take my pill
You’re not coming back
Life’s lost its thrill

So where do I go from here?
I have no idea
I’m full of fear

I don’t want to go on
Without you by my side
I would do anything, swallow my pride

You’re not coming back
You’re not going to call
I ******* it all up
I’ll just sit here and bawl

I don’t get it, I may never really know
Why doesn’t anyone love me?
They’re gone when the wind blows

I want to be happy
For my friends who are in love
The happy couples holding hands
They fit just like a glove

But I’m selfish
Why not me!
Why am I always alone?
Sitting, waiting by the phone

I’m not so bad
I’m really not
Who am I convincing?
I know I’m not that hot

I don’t think I’m that ugly
Not the greatest beauty by far
I’m getting older day after day
Lines and wrinkles are my scars

So alone I am
Get over it!
No one wants me
I might as well quit

My heart will ache
Till the day I die
I have no more tears
My eyes are dry

I'm not afraid to die
I'm afraid to live

Days turn to night
Nights to day
How do I stop feeling this way?

Fear overwhelming
Wherever I go
Fear of what?
I really don't know

The voices in my head
Seem to want me dead
Should I just give in
Or take a deeper look within

For now ill take my pills
My fear leaves me with chills
I head for the door
I can't do this anymore

"Go back to bed", say the voices in my head
Just another day that I wish I was dead

She boarded the plane
Excitement in the air
She couldn’t wait to get in the sky
And get out of here!

The beach, the sun, the sand, the fun
Her smile beamed at everyone

Up, up, up and away
The plane started down the runway

It was sunny and bright
Not a cloud in sight
A good day to fly
By day or by night

She sat back in her seat
And started to doze
Next stop, Los Cabos

Two hours in, the plane started to rumble
Her empty stomach began to tumble
“Turbulence” they said, no need to fear
All she knew was she needed a beer

The plane seemed to be getting tossed all around
She looked out the window
She could see no ground

There was nothing below
Except the blue angry sea
All she could think, “What’s going to happen to me!”

The passengers were nervous, the tension was high
Flight attendants were scurrying by

The next thing she knew, the wing was on fire
The plane was going down
This was the end of the wire

She said a quick prayer
And then closed her eyes
She felt nothing on impact
She never did cry

I wonder and wonder
What my purpose is here
I need to rid myself of ego
Let me make that perfectly clear

I work at my job, endlessly
Results are few, they seem useless to me

I want to do something different
Something that I love
I want to run away
Take flight like a dove

Do something I enjoy
And still pay the bills
It would be thrilling, it gives me the chills

Have I ever been happy, in my career?
I can’t seem to remember
The past isn’t clear

I used to have passion
Now I have none
I wonder if I’m the only one

Too young to retire
Too broke to quit
So I head to the office
With no laughter, no wit

Is anyone real?
Or is it all a game
In this online dating world
Everyone’s the same

They tell you what you want to hear
They’re going to make you theirs
Then they switch to ****** ****
To show how much they care?

We haven’t even met
Yes I’m a fun and not a *****
By now you’re just being rude

No I don’t want to see your package
But you text the picture anyway
Like that really is going to make my day?

I’m tired of being played the fool
I’m pretty smart, and not from school

I know when I’m being played
So don’t bother with me
Find another sucker
Please let me be

I had it all
The great career, big house, new car
So what happened to me, I had come so far

I lie here on the cold hard cot
Wrapped in an old wool blanket, torn and shot

My home is this shelter
It's been for a while
I don't remember the last time I smiled

The sun is rising, another day in Hell
Listening for the ring of the bell
To wait on line in the cold for food
I'll eat what I'm given no matter how crude

I'll take the bread and be grateful today
At least I have a place to stay
As hopeless as this all seems
I still hold on to some of my dreams

The day that I get out of here
Travel the world
Drink the best beer

I don't know how
I don't know when
But I'm going to start over again

He said he loved me
A million times over
I felt like I found a four leaf clover

I should have known
It was too good to be true
But I couldn’t resist his eyes so blue

It wasn’t real, it was all a lie
Now I sit here and want to die

There are others out there
Feeling the same
Feeling stupid, feeling great shame

He took all my money
Every last dime
I didn’t know he was committing a crime

Now I am alone
And totally broke
No one can find him
He disappeared like a ghost

I’ll go on for now
But will never forget
The way he betrayed me, the way we met

The sad thing is
I miss him so much
I must be insane
I know it was never love

I’m always surprised
When I wake up to a new day
I don’t know when I started feeling this way
Some days it’s a blessing
Some days it’s a curse
Either way, I feel ready to burst
I open my eyes, still amazed
I made it through another day
I should be happy, ecstatic at best
But I continuously feel like I have no quest
I don’t get it, I don’t understand
I want to know what is the Lord’s plan
I know He has one, and it shall be revealed
Only then, will I be healed

Am I selling my soul
For a little attention
Still looking for love
Or someone with a pension

I don’t know anymore
I’m tired and confused
This life of mine
Leaves me less than amused

I want to do right
Not settle for less
But isn’t less becoming my best?

I have to settle
I don’t know what else to do
Everyone does it
Don’t you?