I can't get you off of my mind.
You tread in
uncharted waters.
Ripples begin to flicker
across the surface.
The tide comes in
just a little bit higher
than before.

Who allowed you to
cause a disturbance,
in my pathetic
barren heart?
You were not invited,
nor expected.

You're no good for me.
I wouldn't be of any
assistance to you
either.

I can't help but
be intrigued.
Your very being
compels me to
become interested.

curiosity is all this is.
You're not supposed
to effect me like this.
But I can't help it.
We can't let anyone know
that I care.
It's between you, and me.

publicly, you're just like every
other guy.
Every other guy that never got through.

Fluffs of conversation
float through the car,
as you slowly
inch your way
towards
my face.
                               Turning away,
                               I realize that's all this was.
                               Merely an attempt
                               of desperation.
      
     Yet again, my apologetic smile
     Denies this boy annually
     just as I did two years prior.

                                                                        I'm sorry.