I was never good at saying goodbyes
Wrap my in your arms
I'll hid my head in your shoulders
To hide the tears 'cause I never cry

An emotional wreck is the best that I am
Trying to keep from breaking
Fragile, lonely, ghostly
Waiting 'til next time I'm hoping

I seek, I seek
I can't seem to find
A recipe, a cure
to ease my mind

I seek, I seek
I search for a break
A rest, just a minute
Simplicity, peace

I wait, I wait
I wait for a day
I can hide in my mind
It's my way

I seek, I seek
I seek and I find
If you don't choose how you live
You'll be left behind

It's more than your words
It consumes my brain
Every detail
Reveals something

Hours and hours
Spent analyzing
Behind the words
The hidden meaning

I'm just simply overthinking

Scars in my mind
Scars on my body
Healing with time
I am so sorry

For my ways
I'm useless at best
Do little, do nothing
I'm not like the rest

A disaster some might say
Potential is there
I'm trying but-
I'm stuck in a rut

The scars are healed but they still remain

I want to go home, I want to sleep
Why isn't anyone talking to me?
I want to belong, feel I'm in place
Why am I always the mismatched piece?

I want to scream, just be alone
with just me, myself
Do I have to be here?
Why can't I make my thoughts clear?

But I sit and smile
And make out to be
Happy and jolly
Just laugh endlessly
To distract from the facts
From what's in my head
I'm just so happy, my mind isn't read

Don't feel obliged to stay
There's the door, be on your way
I'd rather you go sooner than later
Save me some pain, please

I'll be ok on my own
Familiar and comfortable
So please be on your way

Unless perhaps you'd like to stay?

I've spent my life trying
to be normal, to be wanted, to be here
Now I see that  life is full
But only if you be

Be present, in the moment
Be true, be strong and wise
Refuse to make a change
Just so you'll be liked