I'm standing at the crossroads.

A perfection of ultimatum,
A decision to be made.
I feel regret and remorse,
To choose is to leave one behind.

Flip a coin, heads or tails,
In the air I'll decide.
Don't go with the first,
For the second wouldn't exist.

Debating with possibilities,
Conflicting attractions.
Pulling me towards one.
Pushing towards the other.

Epiphany.
What if I never choose?
To stay here in the plus.
The road less traveled.

The coin lands on its rim,
An everlasting spin.

I miss you the most at night,
longing to hold you tight.
To feel the warmth of your skin,
to hear that heartbeat from within.

I miss you the most at night,
the taste of your kiss just out of sight.
A loving whisper in my ear,
that which I nevermore hear.

I miss you the most at night,
just as I will tonight.
The loneliness you left is cold,
due to the love I couldn't hold.

The night is closure for me.
Filled by the sound of piano notes,
Guitar strings warming the darkness.
Losing myself in the sound.

The light music plays softly,
But seems so loud in the closing night.
A background melody calms me down,
Composing the perfect tune.

I forget my surroundings,
Complete senselessness overcomes me.
A classic lullaby helps me drift,
I forget my existence.

Me without you is incomplete, like the tide without its moon.
My thoughts gravitate to you, through every sunrise and sunset.
I dream of you, of what isn't there, like a fading hallucination.
I go through all the memories, from when you loved me to when you left me.
Did you ever feel how you said you did?

I still feel you in my weakened heart, only just beating.
Your letters read the extensive time that has passed within its weathering ink.
I used to see you every day, now I haven't seen your face for a year.
Your whispers of love and promise reach my ear as an empty echo.
Do you still think about me?

I can feel the pain of your goodbye, diminishing my hope and reason.
I'm scared to hold onto you forever, but scared to let you go for good.
Without you is an unimaginable craving for love,
I'm just trying to care for what you chose to leave behind.
How are you?

I miss you. I miss you like the stars miss the night.
It's as though you had died and left me behind.
Love will never be the same, I gave you my all.
Without you I am alone, broken and drifting along.

Life whispered in my ear.
It isn’t working out.
I drifted from my own life.
And now it takes itself away.
Lost. Displaced. Forgotten.
Life as I knew it ended.
A short click and we separated.
This wasn’t supposed to happen.
Forever, life had promised.
Alone. Solitary. Detached.
My purpose gone.
Shattered; pieces uneven.
Only life could comfort me.
But life left me.
Empty. Hollow. Wasted.
Never could it be the same.
It was life or nothing.
My future dismantled.
A disconnected space.
Hurt. Damaged. Broken.
Life will never return.
It told me so.
I wasn’t wanted, loved.
But I had life’s memories.
Torture. Pain. Agony.
Time won’t heal.
For my everything vanished.
Truth turns to lies.
I release to my end.
Misery. Ache. Worry.
I gave life everything.
Life gave back everything.
But life had run its course.
Life whispered in my ear.

And I remember your eyes were so bright,
when I first met you, so in love that night.
And now I can't move on,
because we danced to all our songs
up to midnight all alone.

Started crying while I was sleeping,
waking up and reaching out to a bed
as empty as the heart inside my chest.
I don't know how to be something you miss,
I never thought we'd have a last kiss.

You make me weep and wanna die,
just when you said we'd try.
You're tearin' me apart, every, every day.
I can't get these memories out of my mind.

Counting back words to when you said goodbye.
This is what "I don't love you" feels like,
And I feel the pain like it's new.
I can't get over it; I just can't put out this love.
There's no one that comes close to you,
could ever take your place.

I'm about to lose my mind,
you've been gone for so long.
I'm running out of time.
I am damaged at best,
like you've already figured out.

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing,
with a broken heart that's still beating.
What do you do when you look in the mirror
and staring at you is why he's not here?

I still see your reflection inside of my eyes.
The pieces of my heart are missing you,
the face I came to know is missing too.
Perhaps the worst is that I ever let you go.

I will go down with this ship.
And I will make sure to keep my distance,
say "I love you" when you're not listening.
Because I'd rather pretend
that I'll still be there at the end.

I won’t get too close to you.

I can only give you so much,
It’s dark inside my heart,
And I don’t dare reveal a word.
I fear the consequences,
I’m scared.
Scared to love for the first time.

Take a look at me now.

You wouldn’t remember me, I’m all spread out.
And I never would have been this way,
If you hadn’t left me lonely.
That day when you stopped isn’t over
And I don’t think the pain ever will.

You have been such a gentleman.

You have seen some tears and pain.
But I still can’t let it happen.
I’m sure it never will,
It’s not your fault, it’s mine and his.
But I’m about to reach my limit
And I’m anxious for your reaction.

You never truly left.

There’s a place in me where you still linger.
Where your voice leaks through the cracks in my heart,
Your smile patiently waits for a kiss,
And your fingertips forever rest in my hands.
The worst is my idle love for you:
It can’t act; it can only hold on to what isn’t there.

You’ve given me more than I deserve.

Tonight I need you… and tomorrow,
But that’s all it will be, never more.
Part of me is never going to be ready
And another part doesn’t want to let go.
Through hurting myself I am hurting you.
Yet I won’t let you in.

I can’t help but to dwell.

You are only an idea now, and maybe you always were.
Something so **** beautiful
Can’t end with such sadness.
But I don’t think imagination
Can splinter a girl’s heart to scraps.
But I don’t think imagination
Can torture nightly dreams.

You are the same.

Perfectly you, matchless,
Unlike any other.
And part of me will always be yours.
But everything does come to an end,
No matter the beauty or ugliness.
And that’s where my history repeats.

I can’t count the mistakes.

I’m sorry for making you decide.
I’m sorry for the conflictions.
I’m sorry for the change in you.
I’m sorry for the pain.
I’m sorry.
For everything I ever caused.

He is the sun and the moon,
a cycle of hope and light
fading into elluminated night.
Every day,
"we cannot be."

His day lights the possibility,
touching, dreaming, not forsaken.
But during the night we're awakened.
Reminded,
"we cannot be."

The sun is warm and bright,
forcing the darknesss into retreat.
The moon's shadows signals our defeat.
Fighting,
"we cannot be."

The day for me to leave is coming,
and more time is spent with the moon.
The sun no more, no time to swoon.
Accepting,
"we cannont be."

He is the sun and the moon,
oil and water, never mixing.
Two elements beyond coexisting.
Deciding,
"to be."

He is my sun and my moon,
my inconceivable truth.