Out of billions
I stand alone
Watching the gift of smiles
Float over my head
I grasp for a hand
But only catch air
Others flooded with love
Flee from my desert
Only one lingers
My hands flutter around him
Searching for the perfect embrace
But he evaporates
And condenses far from me
However, love blossoms from the distance
He fears this passion
For being drenched
Doesn't belong with the dry
But he nudges towards me nonetheless
Radiance begins to overflow us
Desert sand turns to glass
And I am gone,
Invisible to his eyes
I guess it was just meant to be-
That out of billions
I stand alone.

I've been having these dreams
Where time was nonexistent
Where the water kissed the shoreline
There were no people
No animals
Only figures of happiness
We weren't classified
By how we looked
But by how we laughed
Where we were only half of something
Searching our whole lives
For that laugh
That made us complete,
That made our laugh louder
That made a smile
Brush upon our face
Every mere thought of them
I've been having dreams
Where I became complete
But I fell
Into oblivion
Into a different world
Made of uneasiness and misery
And for the longest time,
I struggled
For none of the cries
Ever laugh or hinted a smile
And then I realized-
I would have to wake up
To find that world of happiness
To find my missing half
To find you

Put down your weapons
Whether it be words of love
Or a strangling glove
There is no need for such felons.

Take away your guard
And let the people behold
Your beautiful heart of gold
In the end, it will be a reward

Make your judgment be fair
Allow the light to crack
Just sick back
And let the people stare.

For in the end,
Promises will be broken
Your voice will be shaken
But it will never get better if you just pretend

I remember
Hearing the wind
Whisper to the trees,
To have the stars
Kiss me goodnight,
To feel the moist earth
Underneath my feet,
To have everything
Make perfect sense
Then I met you,
And my world started spinning
In a different direction-
The Unknown
Where everything must be questioned
But there was a sense
That no matter what happened
I couldn’t be lost
Not with you there
To guide me on
Now you,
My missing puzzle piece
Have fallen off the table
Into the cold abyss of snow
Where not even spring could revive you
Your light and warmth
Have been captured
By the frost and darkness
And now I don’t think I’ll ever be found
In our world that was once spinning
In a different direction
Because without you
My world has drawn a blank
But I remember
When the wind whispered to the trees
And everything made sense

It was your craft
That finally I laughed
At this whirlpool of monstrosity
That was full of false guarantees

It was your gnawing anguish
That made me stop and wish
That a savage fire
Burned this realm of desire

But I think it was your enraged smile
That made it worth all the while
To step away from your nightmare
And take my radiant sun elsewhere

What would you do, if I slipped in your life
Jumbled the thoughts planted deep in your mind
Placed your life carefully under the knife
But saved you to make you think I was kind?

If I stole your cold heart, what would you say?
Would you stomp and stare with eyes that glower?
Let me warn you, I would just slip away
And I wouldn't help in your darkest hour

How would you act, if I made you less black
And made the light peek through your filthy fire?
So let loose your fears without looking back
And throw away your hideous desires

For what would you do, if life was a place
Where the beauty of love is without any grace?

I swept away the ashes
Causing gray flakes to fill the air
Clinging to new found objects

I swept away the lies
Clearing them out of the open
Shifting them to be forgotten

I swept away a tear
Hoping to sweep away emotions
That flood my vacant mind

I swept away my hope
That this could get better
Replacing it with realization

I swept away the bronze ring
A promise that became broken
A smile now lost in time

I swept away the ashes
Just to see the floorboards yet again