I hear your sobs from the bathroom
And I hope it’s not what I think
Pray I misunderstood
Hope and hope so deep

We open the door
And there you lie
Lost in some fog
Then I realize
From the look in your eyes
And the colors I glimpse
It’s all over the tiles
And it covers the sink

The scene freezes in silence
Images flashing slow
We try to grasp in an instant
How it began to flow
Searching for the tool you used
That would lead to the breach
Searching for the weapon you chose
To finally... sleep

And I wonder...

“Is this it?”

“Is this the day
Our life will collapse?”

“Is today the day that
All my fears come true?”



Will there be no other laugh
In our lives forever stained
Will there be no innocence
Left from what was shed
Is this the date cross-marked
In our memories forever
Is this the day so black
Where our dreams shatter?



As I hear the sirens fade
I’m left in silence, petrified
In shock staring at my hands
Voiceless and horrified

So unbearable
That it dissociates me
So unshakable
That it suffocates me

Breathing the thick air
Painfully into my lungs
As I wash blood off my hands
And clean the bathtub



There were no tears that night
Just a blinding pain
As sharp as the knife
You pressed to your veins

Oh mother…

What have you
Done?

You have left me
Forever
Terrified
For things
To come

Couldn’t you spare us
I was just a child
In this bathroom who would comfort
The little girl I was?
Couldn’t you handle
The anger and the tears
Preserve your children
From their worst fears?

You’ve shattered our lives
From your own weakness
And filled our eyes
With... endless darkness
Broken our hopes
For any peaceful day
An anguish for tomorrows
That will never melt away

I walk the pavement you walk every day
And I wonder how you manage
To make it

Time is going slow tonight
But during your days
Time is running fast

When the sun will rise
You will walk among the sheep
Shutting down the voices screaming

When the sun will set
You will leave this place
Opening your mouth to desperately breathe

How do you manage
To remain silent
Within this deafening environment

In what seems to be my parallel universe
World upside down
I am walking on the sky to avoid your footsteps

In your high tower
You are no closer to me
But buried under walls of glass

And it hurts me to see you
Fading in the void this life dug around you
Turning into a shadow of who you really are

I will go to sleep next to you tonight
Because this place has been my home before
But I will walk amongst you tomorrow

And I will look at your faces
And all I will see my love
Are ghosts

I was born north
Where the snow persists
Where the only daylight comes
From the glow of the moon
Where the white desert spreads
Further than horizon
And the cold lingers
Into your every bones

In my polar world
I’ve lacked your heat
Your delicate fire
To my spine
Comforting warmth
In my darkness I’ve missed
Your sweet embrace
Oh my sunshine!

Warming sun
Like a lover
Wrap me tight
Healing sun
Comforting my soul
My troubled mind

As I rest my frozen bones
On to the stones you’ve burned
Whisper that I’m not alone
Comfort me I’m not broken

You are more to me
Than just an illusion
You are
My liberation

Where time is standing still
Shipped out to a place
That looks like my dreams
Where I can be myself
Where I am just no longer lost
Where I can be complete
And it’s all magic and love

The air is crystal pure
As you take me away
We are travelling on a cloud
Flying over the bay
It takes us higher and higher
Deep into the sky
It’s just us and the moon
And the shooting stars

Drinking your lips
Breathing your scent
I’m starting to give in
As I touch your hands
I’m drunk, oh I could drown
This is so dangerous for me
Falling into this passion
That captivates me

I found you
Behind the shadows, the stories
I read you
Behind the lies and the theories
I see your heart and soul
Behind the fears and the maybes
You are the one
That no one can see
Don’t ask me how I do it
But I do
I see your soul in an instant
And it pierces me through
I might as well be blind
To the rest of the world
I might as well 'd been bound
To your heart all along
And all I want to look at
Is you over and over
All I want is to stay here
Come closer and closer

Don’t take this feeling away
Don’t take this universe away from me
The sun is rising
And I can’t get my eyes off you
It’s early morning
But I can’t pull away
Holding my breath
To keep this longer
Come on, take me back
Grab me harder
Don’t leave so fast
Hold your breath with me
Please make this last
And leave me happy

Our memories rest
Oh, fairytales of lies
From our history
I burn down the pages
Of your face and words sketched on paper
My tears already corroded

The bridges we once built
Now laying as stones to the ground
Broken, ruined, lost
Pathways to a new world
To the promising land
That we will never reach

The bound once shared
You dragged through the dirt
Feelings and words
Forgot under dust
No longer matter
No longer hurt

Watch me bury
This past
Without a blink
Without a glance back
Lock down these ashes
So they can never be revived

Watch me fade away
From your sight
Spread my wings
And turn my back
Oh, watch me leave you…
Behind