She was too selfish to share
Her feelings with the rest of the family
So she faded
Kind of like the rainbow after the prettiest
She blended into the whole
But no one noticed her sudden disappearances
Into the confines of her bedroom
Where there were CD's and music
And blades and pills
And then one day
She didn't come back out.

How funny it is to actually be aware that nobody likes you
How rare it is that people should like you
And how peculiar it is that you don't seem to care on the outside
But you can cover it up just so to the point that
Nobody can see
How much
You actually
Care
Because really, everybody just wants to be loved
And you need more people to love you
Than hate you
Because hate is so strong a feeling that it radiates
That blackness that only you can feel
And it cripples the very heart you thought you had
The emanation of unrestrained dislike
Is like a crushing blow
So that when people tell you
Straightforward
That nobody likes you
You just want to sob
Like my friend
Joshua
Used to like him
Now he hates me
Can't see why, exactly
But he made me think about things I haven't thought about in a long time
Just by saying
Everybody
Hates
You