You'll never read this. And that's because you'll never care.
But I did it again today.
It didn't hurt so bad this time.
It s been so long it was almost welcoming.
And I think that's
because of
the hot metal pressed against my skin
made me feel warm,
when you walked out and left the door open

And if you were to ask me
Why exactly
I want you to stay,
I wouldn't know how to respond.

Your words
Sharper than any tool
More striking than any migraine
Left me more broken then I was before.

If you were to ask me why I
Still listen to those words
I wouldn't know how to respond.
Is it because they ache in a pain
I deserve, but can't give myself?

If you were to ask me why
I loved you I would know what to say.
Your words true or not
Made me feel a way I didn't know I could again.
There was so much  comfort in your soul
In your mind.
Because
They came from
You.

you’ve become so
damaged, that when
someone wants to
give you what you
deserve,
you have no idea
how to respond.